beautiful windy rainy

thanks God you already give me the best friend like i have now..

amoy with many talent you give and Dy the best shoulder you sent too....

we got print to senen for calender Sekolah Minggu.... we go at 7 pm and everyboday come to my house...

and, on our way we talk so many things... dy ask me about rumah serpong... and we talk many things that amoy being our connection. hahahhaa.... sometimes amoy looks so funny and make we laugh... and amoy forget about the way to print location....

and, we arrived i got headache because so crowed! so many things them ask to me..

ahh.. bless me i have amoy that know everything.. and we got pay for setting! ahh.. this is the hardest thing i dont know. we must pay for setting bolak balik and he told thats layout not setting! i dont know whats the different of setting and layout... and we count and count.. Dy make me calm down and thinking.. "cingcailah"

ahh.. so bless there is amoy and Dy go with me.. amoy know about printing and Dy make me calm down and learn more and more... and we waiting for the file ready to print, and waiting for acc print...

when we waiting the acc print dy phoned with Mei.. i think mei ask "dmna, kok blm plng" dy just answered " ini nunggu printan acc nya belom keluar"

sometimes Dy's mobile ringing...  and after acc print out we check and check, for the bolak balik id good just miss 1 mili and we handle it..

and after that, we go home with heavy rainy day! dy drove so slowly and make we safety.... and he dont know about the way to home.. hehehehe... i told him the direction..

and on our way. we got windy rainy.. thats make dy drove more slowly... on traffic lamp there is child i want give them biscuit and i not found it. and dy give 2000 and he said 'tuh noceng buat beli biskuit" and after he gave, i found the biscuit and dy eat it.. i know he hungry... because he not yet eat. when he pick up me i ask for dinner and he dont want... he said he still full because he got late lunch. he from Serpong... *he buy house at serpong huh? can we being neighbor? because i see serpong keys on his car...

while he drove i hold the biscuit and he said "lah, jadi dipegangin terus"

and we got stuck in front of BCA because he not dare through the flood... after we dare, dy confused how to go home... and papi said "masuk dulu" and papi give for drive avanza... hahahha... and after he thinking he agree for drive avanza, and he leave Freed in my home..

and, the more bless for me is, in the morning he message me ask about flood and make me awake! ahh... thanks so much! maybe i will still sleep if you not message me..

oh God, im so bless to have friends like them.... friend to help each other and support each other...

thanks God for windy rainy you give... i know you have many way to make us closer and far....

sometimes you make us closer and sometimes you make me cry because you make us far... i dont know what You have plan to us... for next year its really grey plan to me...

i hope what i see in Dy's car i true... the serpong key! i hope thats your house you build for your new life after married.... i dont know, when i got stuck in some problem God sent you for help me.. and its the way of God to help me when i move to serpong? you always ask me when i move to serpong...

ahh... still hope that we can being neighbor at serpong.. but, i dont know, what will happen...

thanks God for what had happen in my life!

Wonderful Christmas

Its very wonderful Christmas i have!!
Thanks God for give me the best gift for this Christmas, eventhough we not coma to same chapel on christmas eve. But we have wonderful time in Christmas time...

Begins from sunday school... I ask reni next week he come or not and she said not. And Dy ask me "lah kmren ditnya dteng apa enggak lu bilng dteng." and the next question is " lu di serpong skrng?" i dont know why he ask me that and i said "gak. Cman mungkin pas 31 nya ke serpong." "gw mah kmpl rumah leo kyknya.."

And next story is... I ask him to help me and amoy to print for calendar. I need transportation. Ahhh.... I realy love this Christmas!!! He waiting me while i got discuss with amoy. And he meet sunday school children for a while and i got code to him to eat batagor!! And we go down together....

And he treat me the batagor... And i buy orange juice and i give to reni... And after we finish our batagor he will go home.... And i got chit chat with ka indri abou my THR and ka indri told me... And, Dy wait me..

Ahhh... So wonderful Christmas gift i have! The moment i have.... I will remember it..

Wonderful time i have, wonderful gift i have, wonderful best friend as my shoulder i have! You always know what i want,you always know what in my mind.. You know my feel...

Thanks God in Christmas time i may feel more bless from my best shoulder...

last christmas

last christmas i gave you my heart...
thats not only song for every christmas..
but for this christmas is for my last christmas with my best shoulder.....

i dreamt him again.. with good condition. i hope in reality is same with what i was dream it! our togetherness, our relation....

i gonna miss our christmas eve!

is today our last christmas? i gonna miss it for next christmas eve....

in my dream so clear that you so closed to me.. in bus, you help me and we got discussion. you told me about the direction. and we got discuss about go or not go to that event. you looking for the companion. and i want go to somewhere place. finally, he looking for someone to come and use that ticket his had, and Dy companion me to go somewhere...

ahh.. so nice story i had in my dream... but, im so afraid to looking the reality.... usually what i was dream is very different with the fact...

i hope my last christmas is going well.. i gonna miss it.. i gonna cry for my last christmas....

our next christmas it will not same with this year, isn't it?

next christmas eve, maybe you will already being husband and we will celebrated together with mei as your wife. last year we celebrate christmas eve together with mei too... today? our last christmas eve.... it will be same like last year? or we will celebrate by ourselves....

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

-our last christmas eve-

this is the way....

ahhh...

i just realized that maybe this is the way of God to make me forget about my best shoulder!
my family plan to move to serpong, and now dy's office move to tanjung duren, near my houese now....

aahhh...

if, my family move to serpong last year, maye i and Dy can be closer, can dinner and lunch together, can watch movie  together... because his office on serpong... now, if i move to serpong, it will be far away....

sometimes, i realized that is God's way for i forget him.. sometimes i'm sad, but sometimes i happy because with this way make me learn to stand on of my own feet....

i hope with this condition i can learn much for my life.. not depend of Dy anymore... on nest year i must learn.. at least i have one year to learn it. until Dy's big day.. i wanna give the best part of my life to make your ur day beautiful....

i pray for ur preparation, everything you and mei discuss... hope everything is going well till the day...

keep your spirit Dy.. hope mei can teaching sunday school like you.. if yes.. i will thinking again about my master.. :)

take it or leave it!

sometimes i dont know what i like in, but sometimes i really excited with something i like...


surely  i dont know what would take...


but, in my vacillation i can choose what i want...
what i interest in... 
i know make a new business is not easy. but, surely i want make it! 
i take a risk not go study aboard... even thats my dream from my junior high school... i can't leave what i love... i must learn and i must can stand on my own feet... even though sometimes i would shared to my best shoulder what my confused, but beside that i must learn to make my own decision... i know, it's not easy.. but, if there is good time i would shared to Dy what my dream..  in my mind if i told Dy what of my confuse Dy will say " ya, buat apa lu blajar 3d gtu" "trus yg nerusin usaha bokap sapa?" i dont know what i must answer it.. 


oh God, what i should do, what i must take and leave it... my dream or what i love in.. sunday school, friends.... mostly my best shoulder i had!

elementary reunion!

okeyy.. its time to back to time when we was child...

so great because i can met with my elementary school mate... first time roy invited me to join this reunion. but, i dont know i can go or not..
at the day i was "galau".. so i came so late and i saw roy, pipi, aland, itak, sukris, erika, endrico..

yaa.. even though just make laughing, i really dont know what this purpose.. and afte i came to CP at domino, we move to babon's resto at sunrise...

and one by one come, i try to remember who are they... there are giovani, ryan... ahh.. i remember when they child...

and i ask aland about darwin... he leave the univ... not drop out... i know recently... and, now he help his parents at toko kertas... and li ask again about the house, and aland said he already move.. but, i dont ask him again where he move...

ahh... if there i darwin at reunion.. how are you now.. how ur life! i remember i give you tie! because you want being businessman! now, did you make it happen? you leave your dream... i dont know what ur parents feels.... but, i hope everything will be okey..

i dont know what should i ask or what should i say if we met someday later.. about ur life? about ur job? or else? you disappear after we Ujian Nasional. on graduation day you not come..  i really dont know what you thinking was... but i hope one day we met you will be a good man....

ahh.. roy, never change from last time we met. elementary. when i came back, roy ride me until taman ratu.. he ask me "sejak kapan nyetir"
hahhahaha...

ahh... our elementary never change....

ahh one thing i remember is gio remember who am i.. amaze.... hope someday we can meet again with more friends can join....

and i hope one day we reunion there is darwin... so i can ask him so many question that i want ask to him.. when i ask to aland about darwin, he ask me ' kenapa, kangen ya..."

ohh.. i just keep my smile to aland.. i dont know what i feel yest... i just want ask everything about darwin... and everyone knows well about darwin.. ahh... i miss my high school moment.. when i help him to study, doing his work... learn play card... going to singkawang mostly.. i miss it!! time when we to together... time i remember him about test, task, and many else...

i know he is very laszy, but i jut wanna help him to being a good man... not being lazy man... but, i think its all nothing to him.. i know he closer to enjel not to me.. i hope what i had did to him i make him learn how meaningful of life....

if someday i meet him, i wanna say. i felicia the success woman. not in money but in love!

ahh... if there is time to meet.... i wanna say keep in faith Win!

origami again!

sunday is always make me happy.. every sunday i will smile and smile again....

this is the several times that Dy not come to first chapel, i dont know why he not come to the first chapel again... i think he already wake up early.. because Dy not wake up late.. but, every morning has some thing happen...

okey, but what i learn is now Dy not come too late for teaching sunday school... today i got MC at sunday school and after we sing one song Dy come bring one plain paper ... i dont know what id function is....

and we still sing a song...

today, we got blood war from my sunday school child... first daniel got mimisan and we got handle him while ka novi story telling.. and after that, Dy explain  me about christmas tree origami that Dy watch from youtube at this morning. and he greatest is he remember how to make it.. he explain me so careful... with my weird face... hahahhaa.....

while Dy explain the children, one of our child said to Dy
"ko, gigiku putus"
" hah?"

and Dy ask me to handle it....

waaa..... this week we had problem with blood and 2 weeks a go we got trouble with water...
hahhaaa... what wonderful sunday school i have! i love it!

because i love it, it's too hard to leave it....

and after sunday school, he looking the other origami. pinguin. so, he learn and make it. and Done! while i teach amoy about illustrator. and we got persiapan... before we persiapan.. at classroom leave me and dy and i told him about ocel's question.. about ka novita.

i told him that ocel ask me, perpanjng ka novita apa enggak. i told him every detail what i answer to ocel.
" si ocel nanya sama gw perpanjng ka novita apa enggak"
"trus?"
"ya klo felis sih blng enggak. soalnya ya begitu2 aja.. skolah minggu kita ada pembaharuan..."
"hooo"
"lgian skrng dia udh kerja"
"oh ya.. kerja dimna?"
" di yg penabur itu..."

hoo.. and then we got persiapan...

after persiapan finished... we got together prayer... and i pray for Dy.. he want pray about, kesehatan, pekerjaan, isa Tuhan taon depan married, keluarga...

and he still make origami... fish... and i make too with the weird face again and he help me to make it..

ahh.. about lunch! i give him 3/4 my rice.. and he got angry.... " ahh gila lu!!" and i just smilee... hehehe....

i know he care about me, i know he still know my illness, i know he know about my condition...

and he help me to bring ginger house that KJB made.. and after that i go home... through Dy's car that parking at kartika.. and i give horn to him....

ahh... blessing sunday.. blessing origami... blessing day!1 blessing friend like him...

i never forget....

" Ah.. gila lu..."

-smile-

i know he worried about me, i know he know my condition....



and i just make deal to make my own company... hope everything will well done what i had made...

countdown of xmas!

count down of xmas!!!
so excited !!!

i dont know what i excited of for waiting the christmas, but, i really wait for the xmas time...
time to happy, time to changing....

surely, im so excited...

time to meet with old friends...
 our elementary mate, junior high school mate... so many schedule that we has made for xmas time.. we will catch up with the other... but, i dont know what had change in my life.. i just being myself.. just ordinary...

ahhh....

can't wait for xmas time....

what should i say to my old friends if we meet? who am i know? im felicia like last you know.. dont have ability looks strong in my life. but, one things i want say.. i love being my self.. i love my life.. my service!!!

i dont have any talent i have like you are.. music, art, etc. but i love my life! i dont realize that you are love your life... hope, one day when we meet we are forget about what had happen in last time... especially my junior high school mate.. i dont know what i must talk with them. i never forget what one girl told to me. annoying whole my life. but, if we meet someday, i wanna say this is i am... the smart girl, the ordinary, the women who loves her life... but, time fly and we got good communication with others. people who ridicules me and now we got chit chat sometimes on facebook....

yahh.. this is life.. sometimes we on top, but sometimes we on under... time fly so fast, and people change as they want.. there 2 choise.. being a good person or bad person... i hope my junior high school mate change being good person... this is my pray.. so, if someday we meet we will know each other with positive side.... and we forget the bad time when we made on junior high school time...

i want that time... the best time in my life...

if one day i meet all of them i wanna say...

this is me! felicia who loves her life, her service in church and live her job being designer!!!

so if you looking designer please pick her, she  will give the best service to you as her client. no bad memory in her life!!

ahh....

can not wait for we meet time.. my mate.... i miss so much!!

ocha come back to indo for holiday and we got catch up with arini and others to..

my elementary mate just make schedule for we meet other. its roy's idea... i remember roy, sukris, fio, so much memory mate in elementary.... i can not wait for it!!1

xmas time.. please come faster.. so i can prepare for moving to new house. i can refresh my mind... i can got holiday...... ^_____^

getting marriage

wowww!!!!

everyone who closed to me is getting marriage!!!

Next year is the big year for me!!!

- my sis on March
- my cousin on April
- Eni on Oct
- and the last is Dy on end of year!!!

oh noo....

everyone getting marriage next year...
honestly, i cant leave the first and the last person on top....

not believe it that person i loved getting marriage as soon as possible...

on Eni's i help her on designing the invitation....

i can't wait for the big day of Dy.... i hope i can joint in your happiness day...

love next year..
i can't wait for next year....

folded folding

always more bless if Sunday coming!!
alone first chapel again... this Sunday Dy come with Mei again, last week Mei told me that she will come again...

more bless every Sunday, i dont know why i feel more bless in Sunday. i think because Dy near me.. hehehhe...

ok lets start the blessing on this Sunday...

amoy explain me about the activity for children. about folding... i just yes yes and yes.. hahahhaa... and moy said "ah, lu mah iya2 aja, ntr jug ujung2nya Hen..."

hahhaa...
what amoy said its true.... everything happened Dy always know... and the activity i will ask him..

and after a minutes Dy come with Mei... and i called him..

"Dy.... nih aktivitasnya.. susah bner..."
" yaudh lu yg jelasin kan?"

and Dy and Mei got read the direction...

whole Reni story telling, we try make it the star!

and we got stuck and Dy try and try and did it!

after that after we got explain to the children. Dy on right side, im on left side.. we did it together....  looks so nice and completed class with nice teacher...

and today i see Tatan's niece and nephew... Keira and Oliver... and one other i dont know the name... maybe Keira's sister...

after sunday school Dy and Mei go to tanjung duren to see their office renovation...


on Saturday. i got chit chat with fibi on CP she had fitness and i walk around and we got shared...
sometimes i miss time when high school... time when collage....

now, i being independent person. walk alone and survive by myself.

sure with what i like in, sure what i will take... sure with my self...

but, all of thats is God's plan....

i miss me time....

sweet dream

this is the several times i was dream about Dy.. today my dream is looks so real... the story not far from Sunday school... i dont want stop this dream if i can..

its start from Sunday school teacher gathering... i can't join the gathering from beginning.. i had something that i must did first, and after that i will join the gathering. the gathering is outside church its look in park. when i want come in to the park i just offer something with someone i dont know and i pay for something. i think thats a counter of ticketing. after i walk about some far, i just realize thats not counter of ticketing, and i come back to that counter for ask my money back and they give it.

after, i buy ticket i walk around and try to call Dy... but, when i called him i saw them. i think the gathering will finished but not yet, because everybody gather around. and the first person i greet its Dy. " tadi felis mo nelponin tpi kgk bsa" something conversation i told him. and we got go somewhere place when i came. 

the place looks like house. i dont know where is that place. and we got chit chat. when chit chat Dy want change the clothes and he talk to me... after Dy change it, he asking me for change the clothes. 

"felis kan gak bawa baju"

"itu ada baju yg item pake aja"

and i change the clothes with Dy's black t-shirt. everyone looks to us... 

i dont know what everybody thinking about us, but we was closed, caring each other... 

how sweet this dream, how nice the story was.

why i can't forget Dy... how i forget him in my life.. my best friend, my soulmate, my best shoulder....

he always around in my life. 

i never want stop this dream if i can... Sunday school, Dy... things i didn't want lost it... i don't know what happen if there are no all of its... maybe my life will empty, lonely...

can i find the other best shoulder? 

friend who can help me without words but his action,

friend who not ask me about the problem but he knows i'm in problem. 

friend who know i'm not fit although im try look fit and everybody trust me im fit.

friend who likes grumbling on me everytime

friend who can being my best place to discuss and shared everything happen 

friend who can teach and guide me

the last friend who can read what in my mind although im not telling....

friends are come and go, but best friend is always in heart!

dreaming Oliver

i dont know, why i must dreamt about oli and sunday school...

but, i just wanna say its beautiful dream i had!

first, Oli, in my dream.. i was closed with him.. my cute sunday school child.... and i was closed too with Ci sonya and ko andi... this situation is in sunday school. after sunday school i got play with oli and ci sonya come. ah.. when ci sonya come, oli got "pii" on me... just little.. hehehhe...

and after oli go home, there are new sunday school teacher join persiapan. i not clearly who are them.. but, when i saw from back, one of them looks like tatan... one of them i really dont know..

what the meaning of my dream?

people coma and go, its mean there will come new sunday school? or its time i say goodbye?

because when i got dream its not same with reality. the reality is reverse from what i was dream...

ohh.. God please help me to know what mean of my dream...

Oli, tatan, new sunday school teacher...

it's just Time... the best time to happen it all...

greatly weekend

weekend come time to leisure time...

this Saturday i got permit to my boss not come to office and i prepare for sis wedding find the fabric to some store. and after half day i got walk around and back to home. at afternoon we got test food.

little busy for this saturday...

after we got test food. on my way i message Dy for got story for i concer. and Dy said
" lagi di luar ni... nti ingetin lagi ya...."

after i arrive at home and waiting til nite. i msg him again... and he sent me..

Sunday morning...

his not come to first chapel and he come to sunday school with mei...

i and Mei got "bebong" because one of sunday school child got fall his mineral water bottle. and the floor getting wet of that...  Mei will come next week again!

at activity i and dy got discuss about the activity for decoration.... ahh... its really great sunday... and he got explain about the absent board.. after finished, mei got bakso goreng and offer me and reni... and Dy got phone from his mom and go down with mei, because mei not yet greet Dy's mom.... and Dy said " cman turun bntr"

and you know he come to upstair again to say goodbye... i dont know why he go upstairs again... why he didn't say goodbye when he go down with mei.. but, when dy come to upstair i got conversation with one of sunday school mom..

after i got concer, i had family lunch at serpong..

ohh.... busy weekend.... and there are so many weekend that i will through with the bust schedule....

very great of this weekend.

so tired, so great, so happy, so memory moment....

i always remember when i and mei got "bebong" she said for the first time "bebong"... hahahhahhahaa....

welcome to December :)

welcome to December....

time flies and i'm not yet take any decision... really dont know what i must take for the future....

ahh.. for design house..
there is the fourth chance came to me.. but, im surely not sure about that.. step by step i take my own way.. the company i built. now i start build the foundation. i want make the strong foundation... and later i can make a wall and make a real own company...

but, when the chance came to me surely i don't know what i must take, what should i explain. the important what should i do.. i know i can do that, but i know i can;'t walk alone. i must have mate who can lead me on my way.. mate to discuss every thing i will take or leaf it.. i need someone who can walk beside me every time i need. not being my boyfriend but being my mate to walk together. like as Dy.

surely, i want not write Dy anymore. but, i cant... every time i need some body he come to help me.. how can i forget and leaf him in my life. the other side i need someone else to help my way..

let i try on next year...

ahh... its count down month of my sis wedding.... not more than 3 months again she is getting married.. i will miss her... many preparation we must prepare.. not seem is coming soon.... the gown for me is not yet done. we not yet buy the fabric... we just make a deal with the taylor... time is flies too fast i think...

ah.. for this saturday, i got permit to my boss not come to office and you know, when i told koko chinese he said "me too".. im not believe it he not come at the same time with me..

can not wait for the next year.. i have trip to Bali with mom and dad... so excited, so long time i not go to bali. its been 4+5 years from my high school farewell at bali.

sometimes i miss the time to collage, high school, junior high school. even there time when i got joke. but sometimes i miss. i miss the free time. i miss when i  got trap with mar and Di... now, for to together is so difficult. sometimes i can go because the time is not match. miss when we got togetherness with the other. now, we miss it to go together, everybody busy with their own activities.

December is look nice now..

if indonesia has winter, i think its look nice here...


ahh... i cant wait for the march! ii djay come from BNE! so long time no see. winston grow so fast, andrian with the calm smile.. their can grow being handsome boy later... i miss them....

december please walk slowly... because so many memory i want keep it... if there is winter, it's very complete christmas i want...

all i want christmas is YOU!!!!!!!

waiting for xmas!

i'm so excited for the christmas....
i want xmas song is playing every where....

ah... this xmas i will met with my Junior High School mate... hope they already forget what happen at junior high school. they are not good friend i think, but time flies and they being kind know... hope everything looks different than before when we went to junior high school.

ah... next year will catch up with amel. now she on taiwan for study....

every xmas is look nice on me. even when the xmas eve come i still alone and my friend come and go every time... only Dy still being my friend. but on 2 years we not celebrate xmas eve together. the 2 years ago i remember that i sat alone with tatan family near me and Dy sat together with eni. i was ask myself why can they come so closer it begin when GSM gathering at Anyer. i remember that then they looks closer and closer and i still quite good friendship with him.

and the last year... i came on same time with Dy and he with Mei together. and we want sat together but finally he sat with his parents and i sat with ka indri and amoy and still near tatan. hahahaha....

missing xmas eve time with my friends... togetherness, laughing, candle, blowing the candle, talking, hugging... time really flies so fast... i wondering this xmas eve can back to that time togetherness with my friend.
sammy, Dicky, Mike, Martin, Mira, Dy, and me of course. and tatan maybe...

now, thats only being our memory in our life. hope every one can being strong person... and we can together again someday...

is this the last our xmas eve dy? thats the question! when you getting married? can i come on your big day? must i postpone my plan and wait until your day? what can i help for your big day? ohh.. hope i can help on your big day...

ah... you know everything what happen on my life, on my sis preparation wedding. everything you know... about mother in law. about the tailor. and you argue about all that. and you asking when the day. i hope you can come on that day!

i think you already ready to take a next step in your life Dy! know you look mature i was discuss with you everything, and you give me advise. i don't know why i like discuss with you. can i discuss with you after married? with whom i must discuss with? until now only you know everything had happen in my life.

- the stables school. i already told you that i'm not going to stables. the stables just far from the building and you always remember i go to  school at stables when i'm junior high school.

- the planning of moving home. you know from the first time i want move to karawaci and know to serpong. and you give me idea when i move to serpong. i stay on your home. and we go to church together...

- yo know know too why i learn 3d. you have your opinion why i learn and i thinks thats true. for my father company...

- my illness.. you very know when i'm look sick or fit.. everyone didn't know i'm sisck. but you very know my condition and you will take care me with your own way. grumble. "udak kayak orang mo mati, mending mati aja.." and later you take care me with take me home safety.. i love it! i love your way to take care me....

i didn't know even there is no you in church. maybe i will survive with my self. every time i sick there is you near me. in church, out site church... i remember when i fall down from motorcycle, you help me to walk, you in hand me to walk..

xmas time is time to remember what had happen in one year past. and hoping the best plan for the next year coming..

xmas time please come faster....
i can't wait for long....

children xmas, candle light....

feeling bless on Sunday

i always feeling bless every Sunday...

this is the first time again for Dy come to first chapel after he absent for one month.. as usual he came late and he sat behind me, i order him to sat beside me he dont want because there is no cold. he want near air conditioner. so he sat behind me...

after the chapel. we got chit chat with tante2... and i show him the calender i made for x'mas' suvernir and we got discussion about that calender.
and one of our conversation is:
" gmna sih tulisannya yg mendekati donk, ini mah jauh bgt"
" kan felis cman copy paste keseblah, trus ganti tanggalan ama foto. nanti juga fotonya gak yg itu."
" trus itu dy mo bikin dudukan sendiri kyknya. abisnya yg kyk kalender2 gtu mahal. jadi mo bikin sendiri pke art carton gtu."
" tuh pake alatnya"
" iye ntr kita potongin sendiri gtu."
" kita? kita ini siapa yg dimaksud?  lu kan?" sambil senyum2

after we got crazy conversation about that calender, we got talk something, he said
" gw heran knpa ada orng yg cman nganterin siapanya ke greja, trus dia kgk ke greja. trus dia ngapain?"
" ya kan bisa aja dia ke greja yg laen."
" kenapa gak sekalian aja.."
" jgan gitu donk.. gw kan begitu...."

and he got silence....

after we got conversation i said i'm hungry... Dy too but he got stomach ache.. and i said "batagor yuk" and he agree!

when we bought batagor. his mom, dad and ci rosa and kay came. and he greet them especially K...

actually there is no something special but im feel bless.


after sunday school i told Dy thats Tang alone in 5-6 class. and he ask about nadine. and i explained him about mardi thats he just being guitarist not helping to watched the children. and Dy ask about kak ardianti and i told

" she said she got married.:
" she said she getting married?"
" yah... but i'm not sure about that"


after the pembinaan we got lunch. soto. i took a little rice and tang said " gile si felis mah cman ngotorin gigi doank itu nasinya. liat tuh hen"
and when i sat beside him, he talk " lu mah mending lansung aja pke sendok ambil nasinya di rice cooker."
and when i want eat the soto i saw kikil and i give Dy the kikil while he got the rice (nambah nasi). i give the kikil and the meat with minyak. after he came back he grumbling with me again

" ini anak makan apa sih?"

and after finish for the first portion he asking and thinking want more. and i ask ka novita is there soto any more and there is! i ask Dy and he want more. i picking the soto and order to Dy. he got the second soto and i not yet finish my soto and over. i give to Dy the over and he grumbling with me again...

the poor me it always got grumble with Dy. always and always... this week last week...

feeling bless to have friend like Dy who always take care me and grumble to me when i got sick. lucky me he didn't know about my illness on last week.


it's really feel bless on this Sunday. there is spectacular in my Sunday. hopefully when i got move to Serpong i can consist teaching sunday school, as he told me. honestly i confused to study aboard because i can't be closed to him... or the preparation of his the marriage..

surely feel bless.......

met on our way and take care me

saturday afternoon after my office time i on my way to go home. and the way of my home so traffic in front of TA and Central Park Mall. every saturday i will meet that way. traffic jam! and today i find the other way to my home. through the side of TA.

and you know, how amazing of this way..
on our way we met, on our way we look the other.
i met Dy!

in the morning i message him to dinner together and he said he want go with his cousins, so he cant go dinner.

 and God give me a miracle that i met him on our way.

on Sunday we met i told him yest i met you on pinggir tol mo ke arah TA and he said he want go to Central park and he said "gila ya macetnya parah bgt!"

this is the 4th time he not go to first chapel i dont know why he not come to this week. i hope he has same spirit like he come to the first chapel like ago. he so frequently come to the first chapel when he got new car and time after he got engagement. im so happy look him can go to the first chapel.


ok, after he not came to first chapel he came to sunday school very on time. 8.30. and he direct to 5-6 class because he story telling. after sunday school end on 3-4 had story telling about 1 hour. and he came down so on time when 3-4 class had finished. and he came to me, i told him ko soni had story telling about 1 hour. and i got read bible from 1-30 articles. and he said " gw aja kgk baca alkitab". after that he leaves me and he buy batagor. 


and i got dizzy, while i queue on batagor. Dy in front of me and he didn't know i'm on back him until he look beside, he look at me. and this is the part of i like him! 


"mo batagor juga, duluan gih... " " kenapa? sakit lgi? pusing?" "ayo duluan..."


this is the part of Dy i like... everyone never know what happen on but Dy always know what happen on me. he always know when i'm sick when i'm strong when i'm afraid when i'm fit, when i'm sad, when i'm happy. ahh.. the part i loved being Dy's friend... 


he always care to me! the big things is he know when i'm feel SICK! 


and we ate batagor together and ko michel offer us krupuk and Dy take it. and ko michel ask me and Dy said "1 berdua aja...  "


really love how Dy take care of me... 

after 2 days in sickness

after 2 days i got sick and i can't went to the office and i get bed rest in home in 2 days. its beautiful  at home if i'm not got the sick. the illness i dont know and the doctor dont know too. i hope i can go to the dr. Jonathan Raharjo and got checking from him. its only the wish....

okey after i got at home during 2 days. i'm back again to the office, and ko macna told me what had happen in 2 days before. the job is so many from jj group he told me. he did 6 brand alone. he did my 3 brand. i know its too hard, did the 6 brand. he got overtime until 8.30. and the next day he got overtime because he did my job for Annual Report Dummy. he went to print and make it till 7 o'clock. i'm so happy have work partner like him. he can handle all of the work  until finish.
thanks ko!!!

after i got fit and bed rest during 2 days. Mar and Di ask me to go to cinema. its is the several time thats they ask me for go. but i always reason for not go, had overtime, i have wedding party and so many reason i gave to them. but, finally i can go with them after so long time i didn't being "nyamuk" between them. hahhahahaa... i'm so happy had friend like them, they can make me laugh and cry. after i go home from the first day after bed rest. i got prepare and went to Central Park. i met Mariska first because Di had wedding party at Central in front of my office. and we got little dinner at excellso. we want 50% disc with one of the credit card they offer. and before we order we count it because the minimum purchase is 200.000. and we count it before order. the first the total is not reach 200.000 and we change the menu. and finally we got disc. 50%. hahahhaa... both of we were full and not finished our food. we waited for Di came. and he came on time very very on time. and we got watching cineplex. immortal. the movie is very make me and mar shocking! adn we got watching at 9.30 till 11.30. and after i go home i cant sleep!

but, never mind how about the movie i'm so happy to have time chit chat with my friend! time flies so fast, and we seldom had time to chit chat...
ahhh.... missing collage time when i got trap with them. walking to mall, being nyamuk, movie marathon. ahh.. really love the collage time...

great done project

today i'm so feel bless because i saw my project done. the GKM Tower Total building. the green building that Total build. and i made the brochure campaign. brochure, catalogue, paper bag, name card, envelope. i did it!
and today, i saw it fresh from the offset oven. even thought there is little bit error, but over all its look nice...
im so proud being designer to finalize this project....

now, i'm waiting for Hino Calender that through offset now. i just waiting that it is done. hopefully thats look nice like they and i hope.

now, i just keep my smile on my heart because this project can well done...

oke...
its time to go home, but in my last minutes work ko Macna just borrow my phone for sign in for making the website. because my boss sent message to me by bbm for him. and, now i must waiting him to finished posting the website.

My Shoulder on my dream

what i was dream on this night. it was wonderful and i would like to not woke up, because this dream.

i dream about Dy and His fiance, Mei.
it happening on church, when Dy bring Mei to church. i and Mei looks closed.. she told me that she has facebook but seldom log in. she borrow my phone for looking her facebook. and we got talks.
on other my dream, i was dream about mar and me. we got shopping and i looking for something that i looking. and we got free things that we can choose what we like. after we got finished our shopping, raining is coming. and we got wet, i had picked up with somebody. i can't saw clearly who drive.

on last Sunday i met Tatan, and we got said Hi to each other. even though there is no Oli (Tatan's nephew). he is adorable baby boy on sunday school. he always looks cengok, but he is so cute. on my b'day i saw tatan too and we got said hi. and i played with Oli, because Oli on his grandpa.

this is the Third Sunday that Dy not come to first chapel. on the first, he had moving of his office. the second, he had Mei's cousin wedding day on sunday he looks not fit. and the third, he already wake up on 5 oclock and he still sleppy and he go out for watching on sofa, and he still lazy. hahhahhaa... after sunday school we got repair our class. we tidy up the decorative that already about 6 years or more that had made. thats when ko helmy being sunday school, and its already 6-10 years pass. and we will decorative our class.... start from my idea for decor for christmas, and this week Dy thinks its bot for christmas decor, he thinks its for decor class... after we finished, Dy and reni went home. i got meeting for christmas. when i buy batagor Dy dont want because he want went lunch on 11.30 and now still 10.00. he not buy batagor because his parents already go home. but, he already waiting his parents still talks. and Dy want buy batagor. after he said to abang batagor, his mom came out. and he not buy the batagor.

it's fun Sunday i had made. next sunday we will decor our class. its so bless to teach 3-4 class. we have good teamwork. we have support each other. reni who can make magic. Dy, who people i can discuss, i hope everything will be fine on next year.

i'm afraid when i got decision to study aboard and Dy will got marry on next year. i just pray for the best happen.

happy 24th!

happy birthday of me!
now, i'm 24!
and i already said to my parents what my planning...
make a new company...

interior and graphic design!

sunday is my beautiful day... even though i got the first chapel alone without Dy, because yesterday mei's cousin wedding day so Dy be Mei's couple.... and Dy come to church with his father..... sunday is my day! Dy service at all of event... we doing the activity side by side doing alone with the children... after that, he forget for being MC in persiapan... so, when i with child arrange the song for the next week, he doing the same song... sing a song together, find the good song. i sing Nikita's song "selamat pagi, glory haleluya) he thinks he will sing that, so he choose that song...

after that in church there is a stranger man i seeking the children at the first floor, and when the stranger man going to second floor Dy going too for seeking him. when Dy come down he asked me where is he... the stranger man is lost! we just afraid for the girl child...

when i remember every we want sing a song and Dy being guitarist he always ask me the key of the song, so i sing little and he will find the key, sometimes i said too high and after that he will change the key.. or when i not confidence for singing that song Dy will give code for make me confidence like "roti dan mentega" song he give me the code when i sing with the right tone. or when i not sing the song i think it is too high and he will ask me with the code why? and i will told him... like when he being liturgos on persiapan when we sing a song on the first time we sing and the second time he turn the tone...

sooo happy for being 24th!

at nite we got dinner at the butcher in Gandaria City... its delicious food.....

its officially 24th now! i have a job that my passion, i have friends, family who loves me, and the shoulder for i cry and laugh together...

welcome to my November

it look nice november i think and hope.. everything is going so fast.. preparing for my next step to build a new company... stand on with my feet, i will try. i hope its going well...
i know its not easy to make a new company... i would make a interior and graphic design company. which all of that i think thats my half soul... from i work as graphic designer i learn so many thinks that i can make... from i learn 3D from Dy i learn thats so fun, and i think i can help my dad's company for the next.. but, everything is grey to me... when i would build this company, sometimes there is opportunity to take master in aboard. but, until today i still stay with my decision to make a company. i hope everything is going well, not as my hope but as GOD plan...

i can't stand on my feet without GOD. so, i believe in God who take my way... one by one i can believe this is God's plan.. i hope everything is going well.

oohhh... can not wait for next year plan... not because my sis big day, but i will get planning for holiday to Bali. the most important is maybe next year is being Dy's big day too... i pray for everything that he already prepare is going well. about office moving, build the house for your future life.. i really just hope that everything is going well.... i being your friend just giving support for the best. sometimes i think you need friend to cry on, to share what happen in your life. i hope i can be that.. sometimes i saw you feel empty, lonely, but not uncommon i saw you so happy if Mei beside you.. i know how long and far you had this relationship. but, i proud of you Dy. you make a big deal with your life. engagement. when i saw that photo i was shock and i'm happy because you had make a deal... 


ahhh...
welcome to my november.. so many story, so many step i must took, so many plan i must think and take... i hope this november is can be nice november until the end. 


can't wait for next month is x'mas! i miss my x'mas eve time with my friend. candle. togetherness. laughing. crying. sharing. night. all of the memories for the x'mas. maybe next x'mas is will not same. coz, maybe Dy already married!! isn't it Dy? going marry on end next year. hehehehe.... when x'mas come maybe thats can be my last x'mas with my friend, my special friend,Dy.


thank God for this blast november!


ahhh...
when i see the calender, i see that 6th november on Sunday and Dy service all of event. from sunday school and persiapan.. sunday school he is being "Pencerita". and for persiapan he is being "Liturgos and guitarist (i think)" i think i so bless to this november on my birthday with Dy service...


Oh God please 6th november coming faster.. i know i will be older.. :(

November is coming!

Times realy goes so fast... Today is the end of october... And we will said november is coming! Realy time goes too fast...

Welcome to November!!!!
Not because my birthday on this november but, i look what had happen with my life, i think its time to make decision. For my future; life, work, service, charity, company... And i will take the risk to starting make a little company for the freelance... I really dont know what i must take, make, or somethings...

But i hope in my 25th yo soon i can make a nest choice for my life... Sometimes i think i want take the master, but sometimes a make a company is better than...
I hope on this 25th i can walk on my way...

Happy hallowen....
Happy october done!
Welcome november!!!

W.H.Y. Design? office is moving

thank God for the beautiful Sunday had going... even though Dy not come to first chapel, at least i know why he didn't come...

after sunday school we had chit chat and he told me about moving office to rumah tanjung duren. at serpong the owner of ruko give double price than before, so hendy didnt want it because he already ask the neighbour the price is too expensive so he moving to tanjung duren. and the owner didnt give more time to preparing moving.

so Dy get crazy for moving...


you can do it Dy!

Like as i wrote on last blog, i will told about the temuwicara event last week. I told about my disappointed about the film... I explain him and he said "yaa begitulah dia..." but, at least i already told him about what i felt. Realy bless to have friend like him..

After dy go first i go too... I went to TA alone and drove! Amazing! When i on my way to TA at tanjung duren near SMAK 1 i saw Dy's car... With little space of window.. And i saw a small thing from his hand, i guest like as cigeratte... I give a horn, and he know thats me on the car...

Thanks God for the beautiful Sunday had going...

rainy friday

times flies so fast now.. its friday... and then we will get weekend and time flies so fast....

never mind what had happened on the week, but weekend will come...

rainy friday... whole the friday is cloudy.... and rain... i thinks its very good climate on this week... its make me feel lazy, cozy, but still have spirit to finish all of my job... more important is i cant wait for sunday is coming faster.... 

i hope tomorrow is sunday.. so i can chit chat and share all of my feel with my shoulder...

i don't know why i always adore him.. almost 20 years we had friendship till now we had more good friendship i had than other.....

Dy always know what i feel, without any word come out from his mouth, but he knows about my condition. this is Dy's style every time i got sick, he never take care with usual, but he will grumble with me while he take care of me.. ohhh i'm so bless to have friend like him... a gentleman, a mature, an open mind person, friend who can make discussion every thing will be happen or had happening...

im so bless with this rainy friday.... :)

time is going fast

ohh... nooo...
today is thursday... and time is going fast and fast...

preparing for my sis wedding.. Find  the best gown and  many things i must prepare...

Today got permit for went home earlyer... ahh... its look great. I can see sun in evening....

I and mcna made calendar dummy.... its look nice after done...

happy wednesday

i'm so happy and bless to through this wednesday...
i got chit chat with Dy....
after he went to KL for holiday....

we got discuss for the menu for Sunday event... and i told him about the crash i made on last sunday.
" dy, kmren minggu gw nabrak... x___x"
" nabrak apan?"
" nabrak mobil orng...."
"trus gmna? parah..? ya penglaman la..."

and i explaned him about the crash from the start till i leave it...

fuiihh... finally i can told him about that.. only Dy i told about the crash... and for temu wicara event i will tell him maybe on sunday...

really happy to have friend like you dy....
happy wednesday i had!

Super Duper Busy Sunday

This is the big day of me!
TEMU WICARA

i worked alone, i just discuss with Dy what happen and what my confused... and as usual he give me advice to the best way... he help me to solve the problem.

In the morning i had first chapel anole without Dy... after that when we waiting 8 o'clock. church's driver has a emergency that one of member our church had fainted. so he must help... and the ka indri must go to KJB, so i drive to KJB. when i got at KJB i saw Tatan house and i Saw the board of dr. Jonathan Raharjo S. im so shock when i saw that board. so long time i not see him and when i got the big news is he opened his own clinic. before i just know he open clinic at TA.


after sunday school. i got stress for temuwicara...
lucky me, i'm not got any sick... because if i sick nobody can care like as Dy do..


first case is the infocus in ruang majelis doesn't work.. it like disaster.... try and try, called pak hotma to solve it, but didn't. and then we used old infocus with yellow, blue, green color. and the next case is, Tang said that there is no subtitle indonesia. i said no possible, i buy thts must have indonesia subtitle. i try and thats works. unfortunately the children is not concentration to watch again because they already wait so long time.


for the seminar is going well, but we don't make a diskusi kelas because the time is not enough. all of this event is going well. im so proud, even thought i works alone.... but i'm so happy...
just i little disappointed with the film. why Tang doesn't ask me first for the film. He doesn't know how difficult to find film for children watching.. i'm really disappointed with that... if there is Dy, he will know what i was feel... he know how difficult is. and i will share what i feel with Dy... i think he will on my side...


i miss Dy's Help... when the big day come... i don't know with who i must ask for help....


Dy, i did it! i stand on my feet... i can stand on although you not on beside me for the real, but i know you always on my side although you are far... i think its too hard though the big event without discuss with you..


I'm so THANK YOU to you Dy.. you always being "My Best Shoulder" i have....

happy wedding Vicha...

saturday nite 23 okt  2011 it's vicha big day....
Congrats my friend!!
now, you have a new life...

when i gave the invitation to Dy, he already said that he can't come... he want "titip angpau" he went to KL.... wow... i think he go with Mei... at Saturday evening he message me for titip angpau.

sometimes i'm so proud being Dy closed friend at church... he doesn't have any friend at churuch i think ya.. after me, he has Vania a new Sunday School Teacher... i don't know too why he can closed to her..

for all of everything in Saturday i just wanna said:
" Happy Wedding for Vicha!"

you look so awesome when the day....
i always remember our friendship, our moment share, our mischief time... our time we cycling in afternoon...

shocking wed

What is life for?  being a strong or being a weak..
Sometimes we need created like a clay need created for being a great things. its look same as our life...

Its my story what happend in office yest.
First, My boss brief me and macna to make calendar. I think its very difficult because I must make analogy again... :( and after he finished explain us. he called intership one,marsela, and me! and he brief us about filma packing and calendar and agenda...

How's great a project! 4 projects for me... that's so amazing......

At the first I told that our live is like created clay.. so its looks same as we... we created, learn and the final we make dicision.
God gave me so many project to teach me what should I do when I'm on pressure... For I know I can finished it... for I know that I can stand on my own feet not depend of my shoulder again. because I must try lives without my shoulder sooner or later if he got married...

Eventhough sometimes I'm getting stress but I'm so happy... make me learn something...

suprise Saturday

its a big suprize in saturday morning. when I on my way to office, its not far from my house I see the familiar thing in my life.I  saw Dy's car. and then I catch up for a minutes with him. I ask him "ngapain lu?" "Ngapain? kgk liat lu?" "Oo... nganterin lomba, lah kgk jdi pke mbil greja?" that's our conversation... and this suprise is make my day so blast! met someone its making a good mood...

Before we had conversation I ask him about our wedding's friend. I just planning not come, and he ask why...

That's a big surpise in saturday morning..

And at evening I ask him for helping me "titip angpau" hahaha....

Thank you my shoulder!!! thank you Dy!!! u always can help me whatever my condition...

15.10.11

what I was dream of...

what I was dream of...that's  the big question.. I was dream about tatan.. the old friend, who come to my life... I was dream that we go together on somewhere place. and then tatan come we go shopping together. I remember that in my dream we in relationship...

This is amazing Sunday. I and Dy together going to first chapel. and then Dy told me about the yest contest. he little bit disappointed... and as usual I told Dy everything about my sis wedding planner, about next week event. I'm always thankful because I had best friend like Dy. he always know what feel. and I awyas told to Dy everything what I feel, everthing what hppen in my life.

I'm very thanks to Lord that aready send Dy in my life. I know that he never being mine, but I feel so bless to have you...

It's a great Sunday I have... thank you Lord...

feel bless

Today feel bless... I can finished my project.

There is no something special for my life after join the club of being employee... but today, I realy know what my office mate thinking. I hope I'm not much thinking of this.

Suddenly after I said I want go home after we got little overtime, ko macna said "felicia plng gw jg plang ah..." I dont know that was ko mcna thinking and I  know what he mean...

After I looking what he doing, he turn off his laptop. And we go home together. we often share about coupon, film, project.

I don't know I'm feel bless... I know because God always lead my way, God always with me... so I'm very bless...

everything is gonna fine

Today still busy with revision hino's calendar. they are so perfectionist person.. whole the day finish it.. it make me deprest...

Ohh... first moment never forget is koko bbm me in the morning! lucky he I was wake up so I can reply it... its like a nightmare for me...

But, I'm so bless to have u God whose lead me my way. One  by one I can finished it. eventhough I know not the perfect one, but I do it with my heart and make me feel thankful.



As usual ko macna is make my day so colorful. make me laugh, make me learn something being matture..

2days got plan for watching film at cinema. but, 2 day broke it. bcoz I had overtime and overtime again ad again n again...



This is story what today was passed. feel bless and thankful bacause I can do it one by one...

busy with calendar

Today I'm still busy with calendar. Looking the calendar its going to new year for several month ago... I'm still amaze and no step I choose. At least I already being employee...

Today I'm so greatful because one by one project I can finished it. The brochure for total building. Hino's calendar. Eventhough there are many revision that I must do.

I didn't know with hino owner. We had hard  thinking for the tagline and analogy we made. rejection. reject and eject. after 12 months we had thinking, they want change the picture with japanisse style  i stiil not blieve it.


And for te gkm tower. ko macna and me had made design and my design is approval. The question in my mind is the building is 100% go green, but the owner want make the brochure with black and gold color. Its make me still noe believe it..


Everyday ko macna still make me patient. He always "jail" with me..

Its a great day, even everyday will be same happen what we talk...





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6 month already

i never imagine this i can being strong woman in my life.
looking back about 5/6 month before, that i said i want resign get or not getting other job. but, now i really stand on my feet now..

being a graphic designer at Hawacomm. first impression is the office so cold. no greeting, no chit chat. i think all of them work and work and work and work.. but, on the last my first month all i think is different.

there is Haikal who everything he call itu and sesuatu. ex. bapak itu, beli sesuatu. and there is Ko Macna who make me laugh everyday, who make me crazy in the office. with him i tell everything and ask anything. Ko Macna has been work for 4 years.

recently, awake or unconscious we sometime used same color t-shirt. blue-blue, white-white, black-black. i don't know he awake or not. but, that's make me awake.

actually, i'm not hopping Ko Macna being my couple or something like that. i really want find my soul mate like "my shoulder" .

no need to much talk, can show me the right way, can tell me the best opinion, we can solve the problem together. and the important thing is he can being my shoulder without i ask, with his heart he will help me with nobody know.

back to my topic.
 6 month already i'm being employee of HawaComm. so greatful because i can learn many things that i dont know before. about indesign, illustrator.

but, sometime i feel bored with the condition. everyday we meet and we will talk approximately about film and the project. Ko Macna is mischievous person. everyday he will command my design :" wow, kerenlah, employee of the year"

everyday he will command like that.

but, im so thankful because i can learn many things. but, there is something in my life i want reach. MASTER or COURSE something. this is my way i want take, but until now i didnt make decision.

oh Please God lead my way. i really don't which way i must took. the master way, course way or being employee and make a new company. surely it's the gray plan i have. i just lean to You God.

it's 6 month already!! yipppiieee.....

ci Heidi Wedding's

Bersyukur kalau boleh di ijinkan untuk mengenal Ci Heidi....
awalnya ketemu kenal di kampus gara2 1 kelas breng (dia senior) trus ternyata dia juga temennya tmen baik gw! emang dunia begitu sempit...

Ci Heidi jago maen piano, anaknya juga pinter. punya pemikiran yang jauh ke depan. dan dia sempat ngeluarin album musik kecil2an dan gw membelinya! hahahaha...

trus lanjut berlnjut sampe akhirnya gw TA sering nanya2 sama dia, sering konsultasi sama dia karna mnurut gw dia pemikirannya lbh maju lah dri pada gw.... sampai sidang, sampai akhirnya gw dinyatakan LULUS! wisuda berlalu msih nganggur2 gak jelas. akhirnya Ci heidi ini yg menawarkan perkerjaan yang gw rasa itu 3/4 nya adalah its my soul.. bantuin Ivan, adeknya, ngajar les2an. Ivan pnya tempat les yang namany FISH. disinilah gw bersa muda semuda2nya...

ternyata Ci Heidi going marry soon saat gw lesin di Fish. jadi bnyak cerita banyak ngobrol2 lah.. hingga saatnya it is the Big Day of Ci Heidi...

i wanna say CONGRATS Ci Heidi and Ko Andrew...

Ur Big Day is so awsome! 

- the short video

- the little concert

im so thankfull because i knew u ci...

- 8.10.11-