waiting for xmas!

i'm so excited for the christmas....
i want xmas song is playing every where....

ah... this xmas i will met with my Junior High School mate... hope they already forget what happen at junior high school. they are not good friend i think, but time flies and they being kind know... hope everything looks different than before when we went to junior high school.

ah... next year will catch up with amel. now she on taiwan for study....

every xmas is look nice on me. even when the xmas eve come i still alone and my friend come and go every time... only Dy still being my friend. but on 2 years we not celebrate xmas eve together. the 2 years ago i remember that i sat alone with tatan family near me and Dy sat together with eni. i was ask myself why can they come so closer it begin when GSM gathering at Anyer. i remember that then they looks closer and closer and i still quite good friendship with him.

and the last year... i came on same time with Dy and he with Mei together. and we want sat together but finally he sat with his parents and i sat with ka indri and amoy and still near tatan. hahahaha....

missing xmas eve time with my friends... togetherness, laughing, candle, blowing the candle, talking, hugging... time really flies so fast... i wondering this xmas eve can back to that time togetherness with my friend.
sammy, Dicky, Mike, Martin, Mira, Dy, and me of course. and tatan maybe...

now, thats only being our memory in our life. hope every one can being strong person... and we can together again someday...

is this the last our xmas eve dy? thats the question! when you getting married? can i come on your big day? must i postpone my plan and wait until your day? what can i help for your big day? ohh.. hope i can help on your big day...

ah... you know everything what happen on my life, on my sis preparation wedding. everything you know... about mother in law. about the tailor. and you argue about all that. and you asking when the day. i hope you can come on that day!

i think you already ready to take a next step in your life Dy! know you look mature i was discuss with you everything, and you give me advise. i don't know why i like discuss with you. can i discuss with you after married? with whom i must discuss with? until now only you know everything had happen in my life.

- the stables school. i already told you that i'm not going to stables. the stables just far from the building and you always remember i go to  school at stables when i'm junior high school.

- the planning of moving home. you know from the first time i want move to karawaci and know to serpong. and you give me idea when i move to serpong. i stay on your home. and we go to church together...

- yo know know too why i learn 3d. you have your opinion why i learn and i thinks thats true. for my father company...

- my illness.. you very know when i'm look sick or fit.. everyone didn't know i'm sisck. but you very know my condition and you will take care me with your own way. grumble. "udak kayak orang mo mati, mending mati aja.." and later you take care me with take me home safety.. i love it! i love your way to take care me....

i didn't know even there is no you in church. maybe i will survive with my self. every time i sick there is you near me. in church, out site church... i remember when i fall down from motorcycle, you help me to walk, you in hand me to walk..

xmas time is time to remember what had happen in one year past. and hoping the best plan for the next year coming..

xmas time please come faster....
i can't wait for long....

children xmas, candle light....