end of January

today is end of january..

what i have learn on this january is so many things, but i didn't take any decision for my life... 

start february i must take risk!

start from update my cv, and sent it to many company on tangerang... learn something and many things i learn while almost one year...  i'm very thanks God because i can learn from this company... soon, i will make my own company for graphic design....

and yesterday is last week on january... dy, didn't come because i think he on recovery from dbd... still quite no hendy on church, my life is flat! nobody company me to eat batagor... and i must eat alone and nobody can company for discuss everything... i hope on february dy can come to sunday school again and can teach together... we can spen many times again to laugh and care each other, helping each other...

my sadness is when dy sick i cant visit him on hospital.. poor me... why i'm not spend more time to visit him at hospital... i said he is my best friend, but why i can not spend time for my best friend.... oh.. my sadness....

i can not wait for our time again dy... everything is look nice if you beside me... :) everything is can be handle with you.. oh.. you look mature now.. you look different when i know you before... now, you will count down with your big day... its only 10 months from now...

start now i will learn everything for i can stand up on my own feet.. later if i move to serpong, everything will be different again.. oh no.. i can not imagine how it will be going... my work, my service, my closed friend of course... hope, what i saw at your car is happen! serpong's key complete!

so nice if everything happen realistic... 

other side, i want forget dy in my life.. i want everything had happen with us forgotten! sometimes i miss our time.. specially when i cry alone at second floor and dy came again to support me... im not forget about that time.. he help me to stand up, he support me... and only he come back to see me... i think why now i always depend with him... 

oh.. God, how i not depend to him again.. everything had happen with my life i always share with him.. he has difference side with i look.. oh.. God im so great full have friend like him... im so greatest to have him... 

Thanks God you already sent me him in my life.. my life is never flat with him.. my life is adventure with him.. my life more value with him... from Dy i can learn more and more.. but, i think i can learn and stay closed with him till this year.. after this year, i hope i still closed to him...