please be nice february

ohh No! its second month of 2012!! its february....

31 days we pass on 2012, and i dont do anything for my life... just looking the new job vacancy... and now i must find it at tangerang area... its very difficult to find it....

ok, not more than 1 month is my sis big day.. oohh.. please, be nice this february... love month, please be nice to me.. for many times im in single for valentine.... aaahh... last year is my different valentine! last year valentine i'm with dy! im learn 3d max at my home... ahh.. so nice my last valentine.. but now, its not same thing like last year.....

hey february.. so please be nice with me.. hope on this february i can find the new one of job... :)

end of January

today is end of january..

what i have learn on this january is so many things, but i didn't take any decision for my life... 

start february i must take risk!

start from update my cv, and sent it to many company on tangerang... learn something and many things i learn while almost one year...  i'm very thanks God because i can learn from this company... soon, i will make my own company for graphic design....

and yesterday is last week on january... dy, didn't come because i think he on recovery from dbd... still quite no hendy on church, my life is flat! nobody company me to eat batagor... and i must eat alone and nobody can company for discuss everything... i hope on february dy can come to sunday school again and can teach together... we can spen many times again to laugh and care each other, helping each other...

my sadness is when dy sick i cant visit him on hospital.. poor me... why i'm not spend more time to visit him at hospital... i said he is my best friend, but why i can not spend time for my best friend.... oh.. my sadness....

i can not wait for our time again dy... everything is look nice if you beside me... :) everything is can be handle with you.. oh.. you look mature now.. you look different when i know you before... now, you will count down with your big day... its only 10 months from now...

start now i will learn everything for i can stand up on my own feet.. later if i move to serpong, everything will be different again.. oh no.. i can not imagine how it will be going... my work, my service, my closed friend of course... hope, what i saw at your car is happen! serpong's key complete!

so nice if everything happen realistic... 

other side, i want forget dy in my life.. i want everything had happen with us forgotten! sometimes i miss our time.. specially when i cry alone at second floor and dy came again to support me... im not forget about that time.. he help me to stand up, he support me... and only he come back to see me... i think why now i always depend with him... 

oh.. God, how i not depend to him again.. everything had happen with my life i always share with him.. he has difference side with i look.. oh.. God im so great full have friend like him... im so greatest to have him... 

Thanks God you already sent me him in my life.. my life is never flat with him.. my life is adventure with him.. my life more value with him... from Dy i can learn more and more.. but, i think i can learn and stay closed with him till this year.. after this year, i hope i still closed to him...

january end

i'm not yet visit Dy, when i call the hospital the nurse said that dy was check out in the  morning.. poor me, i i didn't visit him.. but, i think is ok for me, for forget and not depend of dy always... but, sometimes i want on his beside when mei didn't....

yahh.. it's my life.. always can't on dy's beside... but, it's ok.. i must learn not to depend on him always....

i can't wait for this sunday... i wanna meet him, i miss his smile.. i worry if i can't see him again... i should be sad, and dont know what should i do...

time fly so fast... i almost 1 year at hawa and i didn't take any decision for my life.. when i want make my own company, i want s2, when i want s2 for graphic design, i'm interest with education.. ohh.. surely i dont know what should i do.. sometimes i'm afraid to lose everything i like in now.... the hardest thing is i lost sunday school.... sunday school is like my third life....

now, i seldom to contact mar and di... now, in my life just know home, office, and church.. fuuuiihhh....... life is so hard... i want fell freedom of working from 9 to 6... so really hard life i have... i want scream hard in the air...

time flies to fast and i must take risk as soon as possible... sometimes i feel bored working as graphic designer.. i miss being teacher... love my children... ahh.. they are so adorable... i miss time when being teacher... teach the cutest child, and i want care one by one the child...

long time i not see amei, my best friend at high school... but i think i have good communication with amei and fibi...

what i fell now is, i count down for my sis wedding.. i not yet fitting the gown and i'm worry about the bad design.. oh no.. hoping everything is well done and good for me... i will miss my sister.. and i will be princess at home.. hahahaha... everyday we pray for the wedding ceremony is will be smoothly perfection... can not wait for that moment.. i hope my friends can come to this party... ka indri, ko soni, dy of course... ahhh.... cant not wait for that time.. i will greet almost people that i know... my parents friends, my sister  friends.. really can not wait that time....

after march, my cousin will held his wedding ceremony on april.. and i can't wait for that time to....

the almost month i wait is DECEMBER!!!! can not wait that month mostly the first december... this year so many happen in my life... sis wedding, moving to serpong im not sure about this... and the last is my best best friend wedding.. cant wait that time.. i gonna miss him.. this is our last year... everything is will be last time.. next event will not same like this year.. ahh.. hopefully what you preparing is going well on the date... my pray is always with you dy....

can not believe now is end of january... time soo fast flies......

count down for everything will be happen in my life...

at hospital

ahh.... sunday is my concert at sunday school, dy bed rest in hospital, reni not come... and i do by myself alone... seems like when i teach at TBB... i miss discuss and eat batagor together with dy...

and the next day is CNY.. huuaa.... never end about togetherness with family... and ko soni text me ask about dy.. and he ask me to visit dy at hospital.. and i agree with that...

ahh.. dy, you got dbd on CNY... this year you have CNY at hospital, next year your CNY with your little family.... ahhh.. gonna miss you someday... your CNY, next year you will give angpau to your cousin huh? time fly so fast.. day by day you count down for your big day...

hope you will have good health everytime you have...

this evening, i will visit you.. hope you get well soon as you can.... can't wait to share everything again with you dy... super exited for this evening...

get well soon my friend...
big hugg......

get well soon dy...

i dont know why i always being "kepo" if there is news about Dy... what i know from mei status is dy sick now...

and he get tipes and gejala db, thats i read from mei reply to her friend... just one week you fit and know you got sick again my dearest friend... i hope you get well soon and can laughing together with me again on sunday.. or i must prepare or backuping you for story telling....

what i know about you, you often being sick.. i hope everything is going well... and you getting fit as soon as....

hoping mei on side you and take care you... ahh.. how about your job dy? everything is going well when you sick? or you too work hard because you do it by your self..... please, take care dy...

ah... after ko macna back to work after he got holiday for 6 days to hk situation office looks cool... i dont know why.. but, we still busy with jj group project and office situation is still cold....

was thinking i wanna make big decision... but, surely i dont brave to take the risk... but, sometimes im so tired to work 9-6 at office... oh god, please lead me... i dont know.. and i dont sure what ha hoping and dreaming... i wanna make it happen but, how and i dont know where is must starting... ohh God, please lead my way.. i dont know what i like in, what i want do, what should i do! but every thing i through is something what i can learn...

new life, new condition.. my happiness is lost when i got work.. my time is lost on office.. my happiness is lost... i have money now, but i dont have time.. last, i have much time but i dont have money.. later, i have money and time but i dont have energy to go to anywhere... i wanna travel to whole the world.. i wanna go anywhere i want.. but now.. i cant... i dont have time to go....

what i learn in hawa is l learn so many thing what i didn't learn in campus.. sometimes i wanna do something what i learn with dy... ahh.. i almost 1 year in hawa.. time fly so fast... april is my one year in hawa... ohh God, let me take the risk for build new company... moving to new house at serpong.. still go to church on kepa.. oh.. God, lead me my way.. lead me if moving is happen... im so afraid to walk alone, i need someone to cry on and support me..

this year so many happen in my life... on one month my sis wedding, on count month my dearest best friend wedding... ohh... God, teach me how i walk alone....

get well soon Dy.... :) :) :)

third sunday on 2012

sunday morning.....
its always make me smile and feel more bless...

huuuaaa...
i count down for first december and i felt every week that i through with dy is special moment, and dy always make beauty moment for me.

for this week, its no more important than we have quality time.. we talk about kebersamaan gsm with other. and dy got phone and he go out, and after he back for the phone he show me the phone see is there difference? hmm.. and i think and think... and he ask me to get my i touch. and i got difference... the icon is 5 bar and i just 4 bar...

huuaa.... i felt every week i through is my last time with dy... i dont know when the last time i can shre everything with dy... but, every week i through is important for me...

before start the sunday school i go down and meet dy. dy bring guitar and tengtengan. so i ask im to help, and he give me the guitar... ahh..  you look same from i know you, you give the lightly things you bring... i know you do it, every i ask for help you...

what i was learn from you i learn i finish my responsibility by my self, even i ask and discuss with you.. but i can finished it!

what i learn for the third week on 2012 is you never let me alone... you always beside me... you looks you want give the best moment you can give for the last status... i dont know, after married you will back to sunday school or not... i wait for that time...

thank you Lord for sent me the best friend i have know.. especially Dy.. please lead him every what he do, every what dy and mei prepare. please bless their relationship... bless their way every single step they took... i just pray for the Lord... i can not do anything for helping them, what i do just pray for them....

noted! first December

sunday is always make my day more beauty... 

start from im late wake up to church. im wake up at 6 am.. shock! and i'm hurry up to go to church.... and hoping there is Dy at church but im not sure because Dy is getting fit from his sick!

and i'm alone churching for a while week without dy....

and next is sunday school!

3-6 class being 1 class because our children is little... and im helping for being MC and waiting Dy.... and while im MC i ask him who story teller

"dy. sapa yang cerita?

" Terserah..." 

and i decided for Dy being story teller.. and i prepare for kenang2an for children...

and after that we had talk about seragam gsm since we teach... before that i help our sunday school children for choose the song while Dy eat the teng-tengan. he drink the milk even he want the chocolate flavor but he has strawberry flavor.... and then he eat the cheetos, and biscuit and for the other he want give to mbok...

and i get busy for report of bon.. and Dy getting conversation with his parents and other.... 

when i go to TU, his mom on there too and i just listening about the date of Dy's big day.. First December!!!

ok, i noted for free schedule on 1st december... 

holy matrimony at 10 am.. i will noted on my diary dy... 

lucky me, i think im the first know about the date between other... 

and i buy batagor and dy still conversation with his dad... when i back from buy batagor, we get eye contact and smile... and im still with the weird face and go to gsg room... while im eating, Dy come to gsg, and i said "batagornya lagi enak" and then dy want buy batagor too.. hahahaha... after he eat he said "batagornya biasa aja...' hahahahhaa...

how nice this sunday i have....

while super duper busy sunday i have, i still have time with you... and the nice time is you come to gsg too and we have batagor time like every week we have... i just afraid that you leave me on this sunday... you busy with your conversation with your parents and other and i like little girl want candy and you come to cheer up me.. how nice this sunday you give to me... :) 

nice to see you....

its nice to look you Dy.. you look so weak but, you come to "natal anak'. it's like my best present in christmas i have.

the day before you sent me message to told me that you can not come to decor time because you ill. you got fever on the day before.... and, i know why you only read my wishes to you on the birthday....

and on the day at natal anak. i look you from the far, and its make me smile on my heart. i being mc with ci mar... on last week i discuss you about i'm being mc and you said "yaudlah mc aja" and now on the day.. you look me as mc you told to me... so nice to being friend like you.... so great to have best shoulder with you... you make my service is more colorful.

after i finish being mc and i request him to help me for queue and after that i go down and meet him and give warm handshake to saying happy birthday.. and he told me
"balik dulu ya.."
" iya balik gih.. bsok bsa ngajar gak?"
"bisa lah..."
"udh ke dokter?"
"gak.. tgal 2 apa 3 gtu sakitnya. pertama pilek, trus besoknya batuk, yaa terus deh demam... tpi skrng udah mendingan"
 and he go to yosua... and i follow him.. and after he met yosua he said good bye to me again...
"balik dulu fel!"

it's very nice to have friend like you dy.. you know my condition, you know my feel. and the most important i need your support....
very nice to see you on my first duty i have.. hope you get well soon as soon as.. and you can back to reality to work, to control the job, office, and your new house....

very bless to have friend like you.... no more word to express my feel... and i felt you look like to lost every moment with sunday school.... i hope you still being my best partner to discuss everything in my life.. hope what had happen in our life it will still same...

i dont know to whom i told my felling, i dont know with whom i can discuss everything in my life.. until now i dont have other partner to discuss expect you dy.... you still my best shoulder.....

i never forget what you do to me when i cry alone on second floor at church. i never forget how you drive as like papi drive. i never forget what you had do to me, never forget what you had told to me. i never forget you always in good smelt...

and today i learn more about you.. you never leave me alone... you always support me in what condition you have... you make me walk together with you but  sometimes you make me walk alone so i can learn more for i stand on my feet....

you look in prepare me to i can learn more and more... so i can stand on my feet.. this one i hard to do.. stand on my own feet. i like to discuss with you, but this year i wanna learn to less discuss with you...

what perfectly present i have. i have my best shoulder near me till the time you have... and today i'm so bless to see you, and i hope with your coming is to support me...

what wonderful life i have today...

today is kak novita last day.. she is our kategorial for sunday school. she with us for 3 years start eni being leader and with me on 2 years... and last with ocel on her first year... we can do it with out kak novita... and we pray everything she do is for God's name...

this story for today.. i learn more for my life... get well soon dy..... tomorrow is will be better than today....

My Shoulder Birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dy!!!!!

wanna scream load to say happy birthday and wishing you all the best... hope everything you have prepare is smooth perfect on the day.. hope every day you fell more bless from God, hope everything you do is good done. hope your why design is going well and growth as well as you want. hope you have wonderful day with you family and your love one Mei... 

next birthday maybe your happiness is will double because you have mei as your wife....

ahh.... wondering how beautiful is your day by day.... but, whta wrong with you dy on your birthday.. are you going to sg? im lost contact with you.. you only read my whats app and you didn't reply it.. i ask about decor and you didn't answer me... whats wrong with you dy... and today we will decor and i dont know willl you come or not... ahhh... whats wrong with you in your birthday? are you going with mei and you dont want everyone disturb you?

hope today we have good communication and have good team work.... and hope today you can come to decor or saturday morning we will decor....  hope everything is going well for natal anak... 

i gonna miss our team work, i gonna miss our discussion about church activity.. hope everything is going smooth as smooth and perfectly....

and for last one i wanna say... HAPPY BIRTHDAY dy!!!! my best friend, my best shoulder, my dearest friend...... 

high school friendship

today i dont know what i must write on here.. 

but... in a few days i and amei talk about fibi with her bbm status...

we are asking to fibi

and amei told maybe she is lying, because not yet in relationship...

we are so excited to know a good news from fibi... 

we re so suprise that fibi wrote on her bbm status is "missing you SS... muachh..." 

whos SS? 

a man that she told to me when we met? and she doesn't answered it..

ahh...

fibi..... we wait for your good news bi....

let us know about the good news...

fibi... we love you....

amei.. thank you for your cooperation...

our friendship is still like high school.. we laugh together.. even though sometimes i miss our time.. and now we busy with our activities... but, our friendship still warm...

i miss high school moment, i miss when pensos, and i still miss darwin...

love my high school mate!!!

new year! best gift!

Thank you Lord for one year I had through so many things happen in my life. so great to have you You... and now in a new year, new day, new feel I felt.

Thanks Lord for your best gift to me. thanks Lord for special friend you had sent to me to know me as well as he can know...

Very bless in this new year you give special present to me in the morning I have. I saw someone special! dy! las week he said he not come, bcoz he go to leo's house for new year eve. but what I sa today in the morning is so beautiful. the best gift in new yar have!

And as usual we got many discussion for everything. about kenang2an... about MC for Christmas party, about other people, and many more...

I felt for everyweek I through with Dy is our last time for togetherness... this year, its our last time! sometimes felt so closed to him, but sometimes want learn to go far from him...

But, today I'm very bless with him. we can stay closed,we can laugh, and you always make me learn somethings... and you always help me to solve problem. something like my phone is in SOS and you help me to handle it.

Ahhh.... and I told him ka novita on 7 jan is  her last day. we discuss about decor, calendar. and many else we have to discuss... and we got eat batagor as usual...

Start this week I will count down for your big day dy... start this week I must learn do by myself. start this week I will make your day more colorfull. start this week I will remember what had happen till  our last day... start this week I will larn more and more from you...

If I can stop the time want stop time when we care each other, time when we laugh together, time when we cry together.

I felt every single time in sunday school you make your class more beauty. you make a beauty memory you will leaft. I don't know till when you being sunday school teacher. I hope after your new life you still being sunday school...

For this week, first week in 2012 I feel so bless to had special gift I have.... day by day feel more bless....