welcome to December :)

welcome to December....

time flies and i'm not yet take any decision... really dont know what i must take for the future....

ahh.. for design house..
there is the fourth chance came to me.. but, im surely not sure about that.. step by step i take my own way.. the company i built. now i start build the foundation. i want make the strong foundation... and later i can make a wall and make a real own company...

but, when the chance came to me surely i don't know what i must take, what should i explain. the important what should i do.. i know i can do that, but i know i can;'t walk alone. i must have mate who can lead me on my way.. mate to discuss every thing i will take or leaf it.. i need someone who can walk beside me every time i need. not being my boyfriend but being my mate to walk together. like as Dy.

surely, i want not write Dy anymore. but, i cant... every time i need some body he come to help me.. how can i forget and leaf him in my life. the other side i need someone else to help my way..

let i try on next year...

ahh... its count down month of my sis wedding.... not more than 3 months again she is getting married.. i will miss her... many preparation we must prepare.. not seem is coming soon.... the gown for me is not yet done. we not yet buy the fabric... we just make a deal with the taylor... time is flies too fast i think...

ah.. for this saturday, i got permit to my boss not come to office and you know, when i told koko chinese he said "me too".. im not believe it he not come at the same time with me..

can not wait for the next year.. i have trip to Bali with mom and dad... so excited, so long time i not go to bali. its been 4+5 years from my high school farewell at bali.

sometimes i miss the time to collage, high school, junior high school. even there time when i got joke. but sometimes i miss. i miss the free time. i miss when i  got trap with mar and Di... now, for to together is so difficult. sometimes i can go because the time is not match. miss when we got togetherness with the other. now, we miss it to go together, everybody busy with their own activities.

December is look nice now..

if indonesia has winter, i think its look nice here...


ahh... i cant wait for the march! ii djay come from BNE! so long time no see. winston grow so fast, andrian with the calm smile.. their can grow being handsome boy later... i miss them....

december please walk slowly... because so many memory i want keep it... if there is winter, it's very complete christmas i want...

all i want christmas is YOU!!!!!!!

waiting for xmas!

i'm so excited for the christmas....
i want xmas song is playing every where....

ah... this xmas i will met with my Junior High School mate... hope they already forget what happen at junior high school. they are not good friend i think, but time flies and they being kind know... hope everything looks different than before when we went to junior high school.

ah... next year will catch up with amel. now she on taiwan for study....

every xmas is look nice on me. even when the xmas eve come i still alone and my friend come and go every time... only Dy still being my friend. but on 2 years we not celebrate xmas eve together. the 2 years ago i remember that i sat alone with tatan family near me and Dy sat together with eni. i was ask myself why can they come so closer it begin when GSM gathering at Anyer. i remember that then they looks closer and closer and i still quite good friendship with him.

and the last year... i came on same time with Dy and he with Mei together. and we want sat together but finally he sat with his parents and i sat with ka indri and amoy and still near tatan. hahahaha....

missing xmas eve time with my friends... togetherness, laughing, candle, blowing the candle, talking, hugging... time really flies so fast... i wondering this xmas eve can back to that time togetherness with my friend.
sammy, Dicky, Mike, Martin, Mira, Dy, and me of course. and tatan maybe...

now, thats only being our memory in our life. hope every one can being strong person... and we can together again someday...

is this the last our xmas eve dy? thats the question! when you getting married? can i come on your big day? must i postpone my plan and wait until your day? what can i help for your big day? ohh.. hope i can help on your big day...

ah... you know everything what happen on my life, on my sis preparation wedding. everything you know... about mother in law. about the tailor. and you argue about all that. and you asking when the day. i hope you can come on that day!

i think you already ready to take a next step in your life Dy! know you look mature i was discuss with you everything, and you give me advise. i don't know why i like discuss with you. can i discuss with you after married? with whom i must discuss with? until now only you know everything had happen in my life.

- the stables school. i already told you that i'm not going to stables. the stables just far from the building and you always remember i go to  school at stables when i'm junior high school.

- the planning of moving home. you know from the first time i want move to karawaci and know to serpong. and you give me idea when i move to serpong. i stay on your home. and we go to church together...

- yo know know too why i learn 3d. you have your opinion why i learn and i thinks thats true. for my father company...

- my illness.. you very know when i'm look sick or fit.. everyone didn't know i'm sisck. but you very know my condition and you will take care me with your own way. grumble. "udak kayak orang mo mati, mending mati aja.." and later you take care me with take me home safety.. i love it! i love your way to take care me....

i didn't know even there is no you in church. maybe i will survive with my self. every time i sick there is you near me. in church, out site church... i remember when i fall down from motorcycle, you help me to walk, you in hand me to walk..

xmas time is time to remember what had happen in one year past. and hoping the best plan for the next year coming..

xmas time please come faster....
i can't wait for long....

children xmas, candle light....

feeling bless on Sunday

i always feeling bless every Sunday...

this is the first time again for Dy come to first chapel after he absent for one month.. as usual he came late and he sat behind me, i order him to sat beside me he dont want because there is no cold. he want near air conditioner. so he sat behind me...

after the chapel. we got chit chat with tante2... and i show him the calender i made for x'mas' suvernir and we got discussion about that calender.
and one of our conversation is:
" gmna sih tulisannya yg mendekati donk, ini mah jauh bgt"
" kan felis cman copy paste keseblah, trus ganti tanggalan ama foto. nanti juga fotonya gak yg itu."
" trus itu dy mo bikin dudukan sendiri kyknya. abisnya yg kyk kalender2 gtu mahal. jadi mo bikin sendiri pke art carton gtu."
" tuh pake alatnya"
" iye ntr kita potongin sendiri gtu."
" kita? kita ini siapa yg dimaksud?  lu kan?" sambil senyum2

after we got crazy conversation about that calender, we got talk something, he said
" gw heran knpa ada orng yg cman nganterin siapanya ke greja, trus dia kgk ke greja. trus dia ngapain?"
" ya kan bisa aja dia ke greja yg laen."
" kenapa gak sekalian aja.."
" jgan gitu donk.. gw kan begitu...."

and he got silence....

after we got conversation i said i'm hungry... Dy too but he got stomach ache.. and i said "batagor yuk" and he agree!

when we bought batagor. his mom, dad and ci rosa and kay came. and he greet them especially K...

actually there is no something special but im feel bless.


after sunday school i told Dy thats Tang alone in 5-6 class. and he ask about nadine. and i explained him about mardi thats he just being guitarist not helping to watched the children. and Dy ask about kak ardianti and i told

" she said she got married.:
" she said she getting married?"
" yah... but i'm not sure about that"


after the pembinaan we got lunch. soto. i took a little rice and tang said " gile si felis mah cman ngotorin gigi doank itu nasinya. liat tuh hen"
and when i sat beside him, he talk " lu mah mending lansung aja pke sendok ambil nasinya di rice cooker."
and when i want eat the soto i saw kikil and i give Dy the kikil while he got the rice (nambah nasi). i give the kikil and the meat with minyak. after he came back he grumbling with me again

" ini anak makan apa sih?"

and after finish for the first portion he asking and thinking want more. and i ask ka novita is there soto any more and there is! i ask Dy and he want more. i picking the soto and order to Dy. he got the second soto and i not yet finish my soto and over. i give to Dy the over and he grumbling with me again...

the poor me it always got grumble with Dy. always and always... this week last week...

feeling bless to have friend like Dy who always take care me and grumble to me when i got sick. lucky me he didn't know about my illness on last week.


it's really feel bless on this Sunday. there is spectacular in my Sunday. hopefully when i got move to Serpong i can consist teaching sunday school, as he told me. honestly i confused to study aboard because i can't be closed to him... or the preparation of his the marriage..

surely feel bless.......

met on our way and take care me

saturday afternoon after my office time i on my way to go home. and the way of my home so traffic in front of TA and Central Park Mall. every saturday i will meet that way. traffic jam! and today i find the other way to my home. through the side of TA.

and you know, how amazing of this way..
on our way we met, on our way we look the other.
i met Dy!

in the morning i message him to dinner together and he said he want go with his cousins, so he cant go dinner.

 and God give me a miracle that i met him on our way.

on Sunday we met i told him yest i met you on pinggir tol mo ke arah TA and he said he want go to Central park and he said "gila ya macetnya parah bgt!"

this is the 4th time he not go to first chapel i dont know why he not come to this week. i hope he has same spirit like he come to the first chapel like ago. he so frequently come to the first chapel when he got new car and time after he got engagement. im so happy look him can go to the first chapel.


ok, after he not came to first chapel he came to sunday school very on time. 8.30. and he direct to 5-6 class because he story telling. after sunday school end on 3-4 had story telling about 1 hour. and he came down so on time when 3-4 class had finished. and he came to me, i told him ko soni had story telling about 1 hour. and i got read bible from 1-30 articles. and he said " gw aja kgk baca alkitab". after that he leaves me and he buy batagor. 


and i got dizzy, while i queue on batagor. Dy in front of me and he didn't know i'm on back him until he look beside, he look at me. and this is the part of i like him! 


"mo batagor juga, duluan gih... " " kenapa? sakit lgi? pusing?" "ayo duluan..."


this is the part of Dy i like... everyone never know what happen on but Dy always know what happen on me. he always know when i'm sick when i'm strong when i'm afraid when i'm fit, when i'm sad, when i'm happy. ahh.. the part i loved being Dy's friend... 


he always care to me! the big things is he know when i'm feel SICK! 


and we ate batagor together and ko michel offer us krupuk and Dy take it. and ko michel ask me and Dy said "1 berdua aja...  "


really love how Dy take care of me... 

after 2 days in sickness

after 2 days i got sick and i can't went to the office and i get bed rest in home in 2 days. its beautiful  at home if i'm not got the sick. the illness i dont know and the doctor dont know too. i hope i can go to the dr. Jonathan Raharjo and got checking from him. its only the wish....

okey after i got at home during 2 days. i'm back again to the office, and ko macna told me what had happen in 2 days before. the job is so many from jj group he told me. he did 6 brand alone. he did my 3 brand. i know its too hard, did the 6 brand. he got overtime until 8.30. and the next day he got overtime because he did my job for Annual Report Dummy. he went to print and make it till 7 o'clock. i'm so happy have work partner like him. he can handle all of the work  until finish.
thanks ko!!!

after i got fit and bed rest during 2 days. Mar and Di ask me to go to cinema. its is the several time thats they ask me for go. but i always reason for not go, had overtime, i have wedding party and so many reason i gave to them. but, finally i can go with them after so long time i didn't being "nyamuk" between them. hahhahahaa... i'm so happy had friend like them, they can make me laugh and cry. after i go home from the first day after bed rest. i got prepare and went to Central Park. i met Mariska first because Di had wedding party at Central in front of my office. and we got little dinner at excellso. we want 50% disc with one of the credit card they offer. and before we order we count it because the minimum purchase is 200.000. and we count it before order. the first the total is not reach 200.000 and we change the menu. and finally we got disc. 50%. hahahhaa... both of we were full and not finished our food. we waited for Di came. and he came on time very very on time. and we got watching cineplex. immortal. the movie is very make me and mar shocking! adn we got watching at 9.30 till 11.30. and after i go home i cant sleep!

but, never mind how about the movie i'm so happy to have time chit chat with my friend! time flies so fast, and we seldom had time to chit chat...
ahhh.... missing collage time when i got trap with them. walking to mall, being nyamuk, movie marathon. ahh.. really love the collage time...

great done project

today i'm so feel bless because i saw my project done. the GKM Tower Total building. the green building that Total build. and i made the brochure campaign. brochure, catalogue, paper bag, name card, envelope. i did it!
and today, i saw it fresh from the offset oven. even thought there is little bit error, but over all its look nice...
im so proud being designer to finalize this project....

now, i'm waiting for Hino Calender that through offset now. i just waiting that it is done. hopefully thats look nice like they and i hope.

now, i just keep my smile on my heart because this project can well done...

oke...
its time to go home, but in my last minutes work ko Macna just borrow my phone for sign in for making the website. because my boss sent message to me by bbm for him. and, now i must waiting him to finished posting the website.

My Shoulder on my dream

what i was dream on this night. it was wonderful and i would like to not woke up, because this dream.

i dream about Dy and His fiance, Mei.
it happening on church, when Dy bring Mei to church. i and Mei looks closed.. she told me that she has facebook but seldom log in. she borrow my phone for looking her facebook. and we got talks.
on other my dream, i was dream about mar and me. we got shopping and i looking for something that i looking. and we got free things that we can choose what we like. after we got finished our shopping, raining is coming. and we got wet, i had picked up with somebody. i can't saw clearly who drive.

on last Sunday i met Tatan, and we got said Hi to each other. even though there is no Oli (Tatan's nephew). he is adorable baby boy on sunday school. he always looks cengok, but he is so cute. on my b'day i saw tatan too and we got said hi. and i played with Oli, because Oli on his grandpa.

this is the Third Sunday that Dy not come to first chapel. on the first, he had moving of his office. the second, he had Mei's cousin wedding day on sunday he looks not fit. and the third, he already wake up on 5 oclock and he still sleppy and he go out for watching on sofa, and he still lazy. hahhahhaa... after sunday school we got repair our class. we tidy up the decorative that already about 6 years or more that had made. thats when ko helmy being sunday school, and its already 6-10 years pass. and we will decorative our class.... start from my idea for decor for christmas, and this week Dy thinks its bot for christmas decor, he thinks its for decor class... after we finished, Dy and reni went home. i got meeting for christmas. when i buy batagor Dy dont want because he want went lunch on 11.30 and now still 10.00. he not buy batagor because his parents already go home. but, he already waiting his parents still talks. and Dy want buy batagor. after he said to abang batagor, his mom came out. and he not buy the batagor.

it's fun Sunday i had made. next sunday we will decor our class. its so bless to teach 3-4 class. we have good teamwork. we have support each other. reni who can make magic. Dy, who people i can discuss, i hope everything will be fine on next year.

i'm afraid when i got decision to study aboard and Dy will got marry on next year. i just pray for the best happen.

happy 24th!

happy birthday of me!
now, i'm 24!
and i already said to my parents what my planning...
make a new company...

interior and graphic design!

sunday is my beautiful day... even though i got the first chapel alone without Dy, because yesterday mei's cousin wedding day so Dy be Mei's couple.... and Dy come to church with his father..... sunday is my day! Dy service at all of event... we doing the activity side by side doing alone with the children... after that, he forget for being MC in persiapan... so, when i with child arrange the song for the next week, he doing the same song... sing a song together, find the good song. i sing Nikita's song "selamat pagi, glory haleluya) he thinks he will sing that, so he choose that song...

after that in church there is a stranger man i seeking the children at the first floor, and when the stranger man going to second floor Dy going too for seeking him. when Dy come down he asked me where is he... the stranger man is lost! we just afraid for the girl child...

when i remember every we want sing a song and Dy being guitarist he always ask me the key of the song, so i sing little and he will find the key, sometimes i said too high and after that he will change the key.. or when i not confidence for singing that song Dy will give code for make me confidence like "roti dan mentega" song he give me the code when i sing with the right tone. or when i not sing the song i think it is too high and he will ask me with the code why? and i will told him... like when he being liturgos on persiapan when we sing a song on the first time we sing and the second time he turn the tone...

sooo happy for being 24th!

at nite we got dinner at the butcher in Gandaria City... its delicious food.....

its officially 24th now! i have a job that my passion, i have friends, family who loves me, and the shoulder for i cry and laugh together...

welcome to my November

it look nice november i think and hope.. everything is going so fast.. preparing for my next step to build a new company... stand on with my feet, i will try. i hope its going well...
i know its not easy to make a new company... i would make a interior and graphic design company. which all of that i think thats my half soul... from i work as graphic designer i learn so many thinks that i can make... from i learn 3D from Dy i learn thats so fun, and i think i can help my dad's company for the next.. but, everything is grey to me... when i would build this company, sometimes there is opportunity to take master in aboard. but, until today i still stay with my decision to make a company. i hope everything is going well, not as my hope but as GOD plan...

i can't stand on my feet without GOD. so, i believe in God who take my way... one by one i can believe this is God's plan.. i hope everything is going well.

oohhh... can not wait for next year plan... not because my sis big day, but i will get planning for holiday to Bali. the most important is maybe next year is being Dy's big day too... i pray for everything that he already prepare is going well. about office moving, build the house for your future life.. i really just hope that everything is going well.... i being your friend just giving support for the best. sometimes i think you need friend to cry on, to share what happen in your life. i hope i can be that.. sometimes i saw you feel empty, lonely, but not uncommon i saw you so happy if Mei beside you.. i know how long and far you had this relationship. but, i proud of you Dy. you make a big deal with your life. engagement. when i saw that photo i was shock and i'm happy because you had make a deal... 


ahhh...
welcome to my november.. so many story, so many step i must took, so many plan i must think and take... i hope this november is can be nice november until the end. 


can't wait for next month is x'mas! i miss my x'mas eve time with my friend. candle. togetherness. laughing. crying. sharing. night. all of the memories for the x'mas. maybe next x'mas is will not same. coz, maybe Dy already married!! isn't it Dy? going marry on end next year. hehehehe.... when x'mas come maybe thats can be my last x'mas with my friend, my special friend,Dy.


thank God for this blast november!


ahhh...
when i see the calender, i see that 6th november on Sunday and Dy service all of event. from sunday school and persiapan.. sunday school he is being "Pencerita". and for persiapan he is being "Liturgos and guitarist (i think)" i think i so bless to this november on my birthday with Dy service...


Oh God please 6th november coming faster.. i know i will be older.. :(