still dreaming

what a dreaming i had today.. i dream about dy, mei, and me.. triangle love we had...
 hmm... i dont know what it s meaning of this dreaming... but, what i dream is about dy keep caring me even mei on his side...

ohh God.. can that dream being reality in my life? i dont what can i live without dy.. what i felt know, dy still caring me when mei on his side, like my dream today... can i still dream like what i dreaming of? now what i felt is dy still caring me and mei sometimes caring me too.. and they being a really true friends for me...

now i know what a different between friend and true friend... i dont know what i felt but i felt really love my friends now... can i live without dy? now its count month of the day.. i always save the date! first december.. ohh nooo.. i cant wait soo long for that day.. can i see the happiness of that life? can i support them? can he still being partner for discussing? can i strong to see the every moment will happen on first december? 


now, i just want share the best moment for them... sharing, discuss, crying, laughing together with them.. i love what mei did for me.. she caring me, she loving me like dy did.. i love them so much! how they care to me, how dy grumble with me.. i never forget about dy's grumble... i never met friend who loves grumble to me like dy did.. he know me so well.... he caring me like hi did to me... i love how them caring me and teach me.. how we discuss.. every time, every moment we spend....


please God.. lead my way, lead every way i took, every way they took, too.... im very bless to have friend like them.. im very bless what had happen in my life... 


i hope, what i had dreaming is what i felt now....

on my dream.. i just alone, and dy and mei come to me... and what i love is, dy caring to me... he standing beside me, on his silence and asking about me, while mei oh his other side.. i love.. how them caring me... i hope its not only dreaming....

what i love again is last week on sunday school, i and mei had little conversation about their wedding preparation and of course about freelance.. and mei supporting me being freelancer... i hope it can be realistic... and. dy, told me that what he meaning of the book. "maksud gw mah buku yang kecil kcil aja..." "gak ada dy buku yang kecil2 gtu..." "ohh gak ada ya.. ini brapa?" "ada lah...." and he still smile.. i know what he meaning....