have a "new friend"

wonderful long long holiday i have... ahh.. so lovely this long weekend... i got permit to my boss.. and i got prepare for moving to serpong... very tired this weekend end... and no dy on sunday.... he just arrive from hk on saturday night! hope he had wonderful trip... hahahhaa.....

and on friday i bought new gadge! hhuuuuaaa... so happy but i felt this wasting my money.. oklahh.. i think i want it.. for my leisure time....

and i got very tired for this weekend for friday and saturday.. really tired... and sunday i go to church from serpong.. im drive! so amazeee..... and no dy... aad after sunday school i got lunch with reni to bakmi balon... hmm.. get more conversation and feel we have more soul in 3-4 teacher.. ahhh.. dy whatsapp me but i dont read, and he phone me.. hehehe.. he asking about persiapan.. i think he dont remember about persiapan...

now, i felt bored about this job.. and really dont have time to fun again.. really want resign from this company.. huuuaa... really want move to serpong quickly.. want make it happen my dream as soon as... but sometimes im affraid to walk alone to make my own company.. please god show your way.. i need partner discuss everything with them... i need share idea with them too.. hooo.. how i can through this feeling till the best time i said resign to my boss...

sometimes i want share more about my feeling with dy.. but i know, dy is not for me so i cant share everything with him... i just want him being my best partner to discuss... i know this feeling must gone as soon as.. i know later mei and dy will marrige.. i just pray for the best for them... huuuaa.... really can not leave my best friend... can i stand on alone? can we share our dy,mei? from what i see is.. you can give your dy to me.. like you said to me after the day my sis wedding... " tetep dijagain kok fel" what special words come out from you...

thanks god for everythiong had happen in my life.. please god show me the best way to make my dream happen.. the best way.. hopefully.. after annual report project finish i can resign and prepare my own company.. ohhh.. God.. please... i dont want to deep to this company.. so many company out side need graphic designer... :)

have a wonderful life!

sunday... sun day...

this sunday no special from other sunday before.. just feel very tired. because i got overtime at home till 2 am, and i woke up again at 5 am for first chapel.. fuuuihhh... and this sunday threre is nothing special.. just feel what i can feel.. very tired! and of course very sleepy...

no dy on this sunday,and i must do it all by myself and i cant not discuss with the other.. who have open minded, have many knowledge, have many news, so i can learn and know news from him.. great to know him...

ahh... everyone asking where is dy.. i just said " hari ini emang dia gak dteng.." oohh... i dont know why tang always asking where is hendy.. when he met dy's mom he asking again... before that he asking me.. and i already answer him... i dont listen clearly what mama said.. but i trust mama dont tell that dy travel to hk. hahahha....

im very happy to through this sunday... even i'm very want share something with dy.. but, what can i do there is no dy... what can i felt is bless!!!

and now, we prepare for moving to serpong.. hopefully i can through all off this.. :)

i can do it

this is what i feel now.. just bored with my condition.. fuuiihhh.....

everyday happen like same things... absent, lunch, go home, and of course overtime!

sometimes i and my mate the office has some conversation... i think its just basa basi i think.. and sometimes i felt very bored with my boss i have...

can not wait for the best time for i resign... hopefully everything is going smooth well on the date... on our preparation for moving to serpong, and i got spirit for resign from this company.... ohh damn! i cant imagine what should i do if i resign.. please god show your best way for me..  know you prepare the best for me.. i skip my dream to aussie... i skip my dream to get master.. ohh god... with whom i must shared again.. no dy, no sis... just can shared with You my best best lead...

sometimes i felt lonely, empty... really bored with my routine, because everyday looks same like yesterday...

just felt bored on today, sometime i felt fun, but mostly i felt bored!

how i solve this felt, listening music? watching movie?

i dont have much time again for my self.. i dont have time for i hang out, for me time.. i dont have anymore... i think this is make me bored... how i solve it? can i live with out anybody i loved? my family and of course my best friend!

can not wait for fist december! huuuaa.... its ur big big day dy!!! i cant not give anythings just give the best our friendship. now our friendship include ur fiance, Mei... i'm happy for that... and i just give the best pray for your life... hope everything what you prepare is smoothly perfect...

can you drive for me again after marriage? can you still grumble for me? can you still care with your own way for me? can you still being my best shoulder, my best partner for discuss? can you still like dy i know before? i hope you never change... i learn too much from you, and now i must learn how i stand on my own feet... i can do it!

i believe i can do it!!!

what a wonderful family i have!

what i have is very super duper wonderful family i have... on sunday we have spent our time at iik khiat apartment.. so many things we talk, so many happen on thare..
it's very wonderful family....

sometimes i share my life with them.. all of my life... many laugh we share... laugh till we cry.... i love my family soo big!

no matter, how far our house but its wonderful time we have..

im so bless to have a magic family like this.. laugh, cry, share i spent it together... hope we have a near home.. maybe so much time we will spent...

the always make my life blast!

sometimes when i bored at office i just bbm with them and its make me laugh alone at office,,. it always make me happy.... so much time i want spent with meli, nesa, fanny, and whole my family....

loph the full deh....

take me home safely!

everyday i feel bless but on sunday im feel more bless to God! this sunday is make me more and more thank God for sending me a best friend like dy.. like dy my best best friend and also my best shoulder.. everything i told to him... so greatful to know him...

this sunday what i felt is really bless to know him, being my best partner to discuss, being my best friend to know me as well than me.. this sunday he make us worry because till 8.20 he didn't come... hahahaha... as usual he came late... and after sunday school we got little conversation about my side job that i got on saturday... and i told him how about my side job and about what must i do.. and dy teach me so well as he did... its make me more learn about interior design... really so bless to know him.. and everybody think we had meeting, honestly we just got heart warm conversation.. there is amoy, amoy just give money to me and she leave us.. dy just ask "gw gak dikasih duit moy.. duit apa kek" hahahhaa....

still love my best friend.... ahh.. and we got conversation and i give look to him what i make for the exhibition and i teach me how to i solve the client... and we go down and got more conversation with the other. after the other leave.. i and dy still at church and he ask to eat batagor.. and we got eat batagor together.. so bless have him.. maybe he know about my feeling lonely...

on we buy batagor we talk more.. i said
"papi mo beli mobil lagi kyknya"
"lagi?!"
"iya, kan yang avanza item buat cici, jadi gak ada mbil lagi deh..."
"mo beli apa?"
"crv sih maunya.. "
"captiva bgus juga, reviewnya bagus...."

the other we talk
"pngen resign nih dy.. abisnya ntr klo pindah rumah juga males gw kerja ke tomang gitu.." "ya ternyata bosen juga kerja sama orang.."
dy just keep smile and no comment about my words...

the best moment after we eat batagor we go to kitchen take glass and dy said " wah si mei udah sampe rmah gw nih kyknya"
he ask me "plng pake apa?"
"jalan kaki"
"kesian amat"
"lu mo anterin gw plng gak?"
"yaudah ayok.."

we walk together  and dy said " lu tunggu disini aja" and i said " gak usalah lah, jlan aja"

and when we arrive at his car.. mei call
and dy just said "iya ini lgi dijalan.. baru jlan.. mobil mama gak ada? masuk aja dulu... iya ini baru jlan... bawa aja tasnya.. smuanya dibaw aja.. nanti pke mobil aku aja.."

and when i open the door! taraaa.... i just see little home..
hahhahaa..... there are mei's heels, indomi, plate for bread, and many more...

hahahhaa... i just help him to clean it... hahahha.. so crazy car i ever seen... and he take he home safely.... on in front of my home he just shock "sejak kapan mobil bokap lu jadi itu?" "ohh itu mobil bilabong" "apan tuh bilabong" "yayasan panti jompo..." and we say good bye...

wonderful moment i have with my best shoulder... i got heart warming conversation with him.. have a wonderful moment and time with him... so great to knowing him... please time dont go faster....

ah ... dy will go to hk with mei.. i dont know with whom they go.. but im very happy to know where he will go... on mei's b'day they will come back.. hope you have a wonderful trip and have a safe flight you have!

really wonderful have friend like you... feel more bless again to know you as me friend!

make it happen the dream!

i start bored with this job.. fuuihiihh....

my life time has spend at the office and i dont have time again for having fun and feel bored with all of this.. my deal is i want resign to this company... make a new company..

i really bored with this.. everyday looks same like everyday no spectacular in my life. no blast in everyday.. everyday looks same for me....

ahhh.. really bored though tis feeling ... now i know what mei's feeling when she being stewardess.. i think this feeling is same as me now.. it has been almost 1 year i work with hawacomm.. sometimes fun, crazy.. sometimes i enjoyed it but sometimes i felt bored with all of this and i want move to this feeling...

soon i will resign! i promise to my self.. i can not tell to everyone.. i just want share to dy what i feel now at my work.. very tired! when i arrived i just want relax and sleep more time... cant not tell to other people just want share with dy only.... fuuiihh.. later i cant tell as free like now.. later when i got marriage i cant fell free to tell him.. 

thinking move to serpong, and now dy has open his office to tanjung duren.. just thinking again where he lives after marriage.. can we being neighborhood? 

oh God please let me through this feeling so i can feel more bless with this work... im really tired with all of this.. please lead me the best way i can take.. take it or leave it.. please God show me the best way i can take.. hope i can being like dy who can take the risk, who can make decision, who can lead... hope i can learn from dy from our friendship...

will i miss him later? hope we can still have shred time like we did now.. so much fun and wonderful life when i met him in my life... very very wonderful life i have when he come to my life...

make it happen. what i have dream and thinking!

happy wedding my sis!!!

happy wedding my sis... ur new life begin....
the plan is going smooth perfectly...
ahhh.. thank to God for guide whole the event so its make perfectly done!

i will miss my sis.. my life start begin to.. alone at home.... i must enjoy it...

ok, but life must going.....

dy can not come to the reception either holy matrimony....

and we start talk about beautiful sunday i had!
lucky me i can wake up early and can go to sunday school... and when i arrived
taaaddaaa...
i see dy's car on park... but i not see him....
ya i not think more and sunday school must go on..

just tang tell dy being "cemong-cemong" and i not think more about dy, because i still flying... hehehehe...
sunday school must start and i didnt see him again.... and he not prepare the box like reni told to him.. ahhh.... i never trust to leave sunday school to him alone.. hahahhaa....

after sunday school, i still busy with sunday school children and he still not come... till i go down to eat batagor.. i saw him... dy with mei... and dy saw me and he smile to me.. i went to drink, and go up stair again and go down again to eat batagor... when i take drink he look back to me.. and when i back from buy batagor we smile.. and i eat batagor alone.. poor me.. when i eat dy and mei come to me..

"sorry fel, kmren gak bisa dteng..." dy said to me...
"selamat menempuh hidup baru" mei said to me.. ahhahaha.. we laugh together....
and one sentence i love dy said to me
"selamat menikmati tinggal sendiri..." "kmren sampe jem brpa?"
"gw sampe stgah 12 lah dirmh..."
"lu masih beler bnget fel.." mei said to me... "bersihin make upnya kan yang susah..'
and they want go to eat...
"nanti balik lagi kok..." dy said.... and one i love is
"tenang fel.. tetep dijagain kok...." mei said to me.. i love it!!!

thanks so much mei.. you give your love one to caring me... thank so much to love me as your friend....

and i got some text while persiapan with dy... i love.. he keep saw me despite we not sit near, but we still keep eye contact....

tang told me when he met dy...
"untung si felis dateng.. tau aja sih tuh anak..."

hahaha.. i always know dy.. i cant leave sunday school to you alone... hahahha... i love my sunday school mate at 3-4.. i think we have good communication and we have good understanding to each other...

ahh.. someday i will told to dy ahh.. tang ask me hendy mo merrit ya.. i just answer no commen.. and he said  masa lu gak tau sih.. ahhahaa... ini adalah orng kesekian yang nanya dia mo merrit.. hahahhaa...

ahh.. what i feel bless is why dy is the first one said different with the other to say congrats... he not say congrats to my sis, but he said to me to keep enjoy live alone at home.. why and why... why must dy know me so well than myself.. why he come to my life so deep till heart... why must he told me like that... ohh god.. its a real friendship i have to him.. even we not have good spend time on this sunday but, very words come out from his its so meaningful to me..
so deep meaning to me....

thank God, for every moment i had...
i will enjoy my alone live...