4 days left!

it only 4 days left to my sis big day...
so excited so many things we must prepare.. ahhh... if i can get holiday 1 weeks its more wonderful i think.. hehehe

oke.. now the problem is....
i think i will cry when the holy matrimony.. i know it can not be cry but i must strong... ahh.. wonder that dy come with in or without mei on his side.. i wanna see his smile on the day... or i will miss him.. soon i will left him.. ahh.. i want he see me as my best friend...

on 9gag said different of best friend and friend.. best friend when his/her friend sick they will said " you will died" hahaha.. and this is like happen between us... dy always said "mending mati aja lu.." "udah kyk orng mati aja" hahhaa.. its like dy did to me...

and today i got chit chat with kak novita, and we discuss little about kak novita, she said hendy pasti jadi suami yang setia.. and i said, dia menjadi pendamping yang setia.. walau suka ngoceh ngoceh tapi ttp aja dibantuin.. hehehhe

its like dy did....

i love my shoulder too much!

five days more!!!

not more than one week its my sis wedding....

so excited, so sad..  but it must fell happy... ahh... so any preparation we must do.. day by day.. and its the last week we will have...

bless sunday i have on this sunday.. dy come and i can see his smile again, and make me calm... ah... mei going to chapel and dy going to sunday school.. and i said that next week no me and reni.... hahahha.. and reni titip aktivitas to hendy and i told to reni "tmpaknya lu salh nitip ke hendy" hahaha... mei pun ngakak...

ahh... and after sunday scholl, one of my student lead the preayer in english.. and after that mei just look like cengok face because the prayer.. oh.. and hen dy said "doanya hafalan" hahahhaa...

ahh.. i almost forget to give the invitation to tatan, because he already go home.. lucky me i met ci sonya and ko andi.. and i let it to him...

after there is nothing in sunday school mei and dy go to tanjung duren.. may be see how the renovation of their office.. i think its not yet finish of renovation....

now i count day to the biggest day of my sis.. fuiiihh....

lost my soul

this monday, like disaster for me.. no energy in my soul, mind to work....

yesterday, dy not come to sunday school.. he text me... he ask about the rain and the end of he not come...

i think its not make me energy for this monday....
this make is too lazy for me..
i want long weekend but, the weekend is over....

countdown for my sis wedding...
finally, my gown is finished... i can find the best swaroski for the gown, and the other equipment for the wedding..
fuuiihh.. i make many permit for my work..
lucky my boss so kind about permit...

learn to stand on my feet, learn about my future life....

ahhh... moving to serpong i can not wait for that.... can i go to kepa like i did now? can i get closer with my best friend like we did now? can i come to his wedding party on december? huh? many plan we did....

i miss my best shoulder too much... i miss our spending time for laughing, cry, support, discuss... many time we lost.... i get busy with my sis wedding preparation, and you will did too... prepare for your big day...

too nice to know you.... too bad if i lost you...

my best shoulder while time....
:)

miss my ray

i lost my true friend..
ray..

i cant contact him..
too afraid to contact him....
poor me can not contact him again

my true friend....
who can make me know many things
i lost him...
since that special party..

i dont know where is he now
i not dare to contact him
i miss chit chat with him...

i miss laugh together...
i miss share with him

how i must contact him again?
i really not dare of date

laughing together...
till we meet again...
keep rolling buddy!!

friendship is never end

you can keep me smile...

you can make me calm...

you can show me the way...

looks you are so perfect...

but, i not you born not for me...

i know this feeling must gone...

but, our friendship is still warm....

i can get happiness from you

i can learn from you many lesson...

i feel more feeling when i near you...

i feel more bless to have friend like you...

i hope this friendship will never end...

the beauty friendship i have...

from i teenage till now im mature

pure friendship i have

so nice to know him

the mature one, the strong man 

the weak i know...

friendship will never end till we grow old...

will i meet someone like him?

picky friendly, humble

warm with his friend

cool with who not near.....

can i back to time we shared ?

can i back when he being my shoulder ?

i never forget....

the worst had happen in my service....

and he help me

you are so kind to me..

too humble with me

i' so proud to have friend like him...

too poor if i lost him....

.dy.

happy valentine....

this year, on my valentine still being single and very happy woman...

i remember when last year valentine... im with Dy! i learn 3d max on my home.., and dy asking me today corse or not... ahh... last valentine so nice to me.. but today my valentine i feel still alone... my friends busy with their partner....

still single and happy on this year valentine... i still have more energy to survive....

please be nice on this valentine.. i fell bless what had happen in my life.. thanks Lord, you sent me the best family i have.. family who always care to me... best friend who know my condition, and friends who always make me smile and cry...

the best love i get is from God.. through my family.. the best present i got from this valentine is my best friends include my best shoulder.. the other present i got is friends.. the love of friendship...

too glad to have them in my life.. to poor if i lost them...

thank you Lord...

happy valentine day everyone!

spend time with......

Thanks Lord for beauty Sunday i had.. very Sunday is my special moment to shared everything to my special friend... last week he came with mei, and now he came alone.. ahhh.. Lord thanks for yesterday moment... i always remember every moment i shared with him...

as usual he came late to sunday school, he said "tadi gitar gw ketinggalan, jadi balik lagi deh.." i and reni was worry because its almost 8.30 and he still not come... ahh.. wonderful time i had with him... 

hew bring his ipad, and i ask about the plastic and he said " kmren kan beli yang putih, trus gw kasih mei.. gw beli lagi yang baru.." and i still wondering about his kind... and he left his bag to me... 

 

as usual we eat batagor and i paid all for dy and reni too... ahh.. its best moment... we shared in front of church waiting the batagor... and i stole his car's key and he looking that, and he judge vania stole it.. and he ask me " lu yang ngumpetin yaa..." and  i said 'yes..." and i bring it out from my bag.. "gila dimsukin ke dalam tasnya lagi...." hahhahaha

after we eat i bring back the he plate and dy too... and i said

"dy nanti pas cici dteng ya.. tanggal 3..."

"oh iya... dimana sih?"

" bapindo..."

" lnte brapa?"

" lante 9"

and i go to kitchen to bring glass for drink.. i bring two glass... for me and dy.. because i know he will drink after eat batagor... wile i walk back to front i give the glass to dy when we met at the corridor. he want go to kitchen take the glass... and i give it to him... ahh... so nice i can serve him as i can....

and before pembinaan... i ask about the wedding... it will held on PIK... and he tell me about the wedding building....

" iye, nyesek gw... pas udh dp pik, trus tanya bapindo, harga selisih dikit... tpi bapindo gak enak ngantri liftnya.... klo ini kan parkirnya gede, trus gak perlu ngantri lift.. ya doain aja biar gak ujan..."

" trus nanti tinggal mna?"

" ini lagi bangun...'

the worst i dont ask him about where is it.. poor me... 

and we little bit discuss about the wedding... and pembinaan start it!

i dont know about mei's character.. when we eat batagor i think mei's call because when i hold his bag the phone is vibrate and he hang up i think its mei.. and dy said yang ikut pembinaan sedikit, jadi mo ikut. and then dy said the other topic again. ya masa ke uri or pik terus sih.. yaaa apalah.. i dont heard clearly...

and when we wait for pembinaan. mikha ask me " lu sabtu kerja fel?' and dy said " sudahalah jangan membuka luka lama..." hahahhaha... thanks Dy your help  me to answer it!

it's wonderful moment i had... pembinaan not yet finish and he want go... ahh... still feel bless every sunday i spent with him.. ahh. when sunday school he ask 

" gak ada aktivitas.." 

" makanya klau orng whats app diblesss...."

hahahhaha....

its my precious moment i spent with him.. if there is mei, i think it would not be same like this... very thanks lord had sent me friend who knows me as well.... i think he knows my character as well than me....

ohh Lord... can i life with out him? can i stand up with out him? ohh Lord... may i still on his beside after his married? can i still on his side for we care each other?

ahhh... time flies to fast Lord.. now February... and i dont have much time to share with him.. maybe for the next next week he will bring mei and i can not spare more my time with him...

ohh Lord, can you stop the time when we spend our time together? when kebersamaan GSM on March Dy can not join with us.. and i think i will not too because  want prepare the serpong house for moving.. ahhh.. time flies to fast and i cant count till the first december... 

at least what i can learn from this sunday, he still not leave me alone... thanks Lord.. when there is Mei, he still not leave me alone too.. like last week. im so happy he not leave me alone.. im happy they can on my side when im alone... ahh.. the impirt think i told to dy is, i told about what reni ask to me...

"wktu kmaren reni crita sama gw... ada yang nanya si hndy mo merit ya emangnya? trus gw tanya siapa emangnya yang nana trus katanya oche yang nanya..'

still not believe i can still share with dy.. every moment i have.. happy, sad, confused.. the worst moment i not yet tell  him.. about the moving, about the resign from this company.. ahh.. Lord, help me to find the best time i can shred with him.. please Lord dont take our quality time.. the quality time from friendship is important for me... its can make he closed to him....

please Lord, for take slow the time.. so i can enjoy my time with him,.., lord, i still can not believe to leave him.. please take mo to stand up alone Lord... i know you not leave me alone.. you will sent the best friend agin like you sent dy to my life.. my best shoulder to cry on, y shoulder to make me smile again... my best shoulder when i sick.. Lord, please sent me the other best friend who can take care me as dy did to me...

untill now i not find the best shoulder like dy did to me.. i know maybe its will not same.. my best shoulder can not change by the other... he still in my deep heart... he still being my best shoulder... thanks Lord, because i didn't get sick... i dont know who can cares me like dy did... who can drives so safety like papi's drive... who can i ask to discuss everything happen in my life... 

thanks Lord i can spend my life with him... he will go abroad 12/14 till 24 march.. lucky me he can come cici's wedding.. i fell bless about that....

thanks lord what had happen in my life on this sunday....

nice to see you again

its so nice to see you again dy after 2 weeks you sick.. and now you getting better and you not going lost your weight... hahhaa....

the best gift this sunday is, dy come with mei too.. and we have little conversation... the good news is the mei's contract will end this end of month (feb)... waaa... so nice to heard that news... so she will stay at jkt as long as she want... because when we had conversation she said, she bored.. hehehhee

and i think dy not go to persiapan... and finally he follow the persiapan..... but, he not follow till end.. after the first lesson he went out.... and before that mei said...
"udh balik? gak pa?"
"iya, dia biasa begitu mei.."
"tau gitu gw nunggu di luar"
hahahahaha

it's dy i know...

what i thank to God.. i just like alone child, but dy and mei come to near me with me to make me smile again.... i eat batagor alone, you are busy with your wedding preparation administration. and when i go upstair you eat batagor.. and i sit alone at upstair you come and sit near with me.. with mei beside me and dy beside her... ahh.. so nice to near them... my lovely best friend.... and you still never leave me alone... although mei with you, but you never leave me alone.. you always still beside me... but, there is difference,,, i cant share everything again with you dy.. because there is mei... we cant go closed as before...

one thing i never forget is, you never leave me alone... thanks God for sending me friend like that... so kindly, so friendly.... so calm, so mature, very know me... i know you never leave me alone dy.. thanks God for this sunday... i can see his face again with good condition...

its really nice sunday i had!

thats one thing i never forget.. you still never leave me alone.. you still care about me... like you did to me when i cry alone...

next moment i had is i met my junior high school.. Amel...
i drive alone to karawaci.. so nice and have good communication with her.. so nice to conversation with her..

thanks Gos for beauty sunday i have

galau feeling

still not believe that time flies soo fast... now we on second month of 2012...

everyday i fell same day.... just working, and go home... work and work.. im so bored about this life.. i want little fun in my life... just bored about this activity.... wake up, work, and go home... my weekend time just lost because i must work on saturday.. and after go home, i felt tired... just want sleep..

i dont have time again for i relax... go home and go to sleep... and sometimes my boss give bbm to explain the brief for tomorrow.. what a perfect life i have....

now, i have little money, i have energy, but i dont have time to relax my life... last when i was young, i have time and energy, but i dont have money to relax.... later if i grow old, i have time and money but i dont have energy.. its life! so cruel!!!!

now i feel i dont have friend again in my life.. just my office mate... mcna, haikal, pak budi and others in office.... i seldom contact with mar and other collage friends... i miss my collage time.. so fun.. so memory able.. i want back to my collage life... so amazing...

just like i have my own earth.... no body else.. just my family.... ahhh.. so bad this life....