Flashback

Lets i start to flash back what happen in my life on 2014..
So many story that i have in this year..  Im being so tuff person, indepence, and im strong enoung..

Let start on the fisrt month i had a bless xmas and new year present that i can going to korea for holiday.. And through again mont by month.. On mid of the year im being strong enough to handle big event of sunday school camp.. And this what i know is i can range and handle by myself.. Without helping hendy.. Because dy is going to sg for mei's cousin wedding..

And im still working at matahari.. Eventhough sometimes i want resign.. But sometimes not.. And what happen is on my birthday.. Popo rest in peace on my birthday.. Need some weeks to refresh my mind.. And make courage to come to her bedroom... Im feeling lost of her.. Because everyday i saw, talk even just say hi or something else..

And on the end of year, berli is death... On christmas eve.. Its so sad to heard that.. My pet from my junior high school.. My friend, my place to share..

And today is the end of year.. I hope everything will be better on next year..

I will fight till the end and never give up...

My 27

Thats my 27 yo this year..
I have a morning run.. And have a routine day by day...
Have a wonderful life in office.. Have a tea time at office.. And have a chit chat with the other...

And unfortunetly i have a bad news when i back to my desk from chit chat...
Popo rest in peace..
I just drop my phone and said to my friend "popo gw meninggal"
Fadia, amir, adi saw me when im crying...

I think its my best present i had...

Come home and saw in my home have a lot of people... Having dinner with unpredictable condition... Having dinner with popo still in room.. Being cold and more cold...

On friday, my office mate come to oasis..
We chat, sharing, laughing... And i tidak pernah terpikir that my officemate come so many... Almost 1 store dev come..
What i amaze too is adi come alone after the other arrive and taddaaa... Adi come.. He drive alone.. Shiokk.. And he looks so baiikk bgt... Nemenin gw kmna aja.. And masih sempet2nya kita ngobrol berdua infront of the door and when we sit with the others we chit chat.. Hahaha... He told me that his wife gave HP sony as bday present.. Hahaha..

We have ceremonial.. tante lily and ko denis come on saturday evening.. I dont know what he thinking ya... Masa dia gak salamin gw sama sekali.. Even i come to near him even si tante lily already gave me shakehand.. Hahahha... Once a time on we have chit chat, i saw his eyes looking at me and he look around.. He attantion with me? Hahaha

And on sunday they follow to kuburan too... Ko dennis drive car and they come late.. So after ibadah i prepare stiker to his car...

I dont know what he thinking of me... But from first time we met, we dont teach each other.. Eventhough shakehand.. Hahaha... We not touch each other.. Its so amazing... Hmm.. Its a fourth time we met.. What i know now is ko denis is seaching house.. One day when im sick tante lily phone to home and told that there is one developer want soft lauching cluster... And ko denis want go there with my parents.. Hahahaa.. His sound soo bass but look like kids sound.. Hahahaha...
Thats not im falling in love with him ya.. Hahahahha

Thats my bday present from God.. Thank Lord for always with me.. And now i starting with new day..

Its a begining

Its a begining of my fear from my parents.. On last may I went with my parents with tante and ko denis.. Going to bogor for looking the land at ujung berung entah dmna..
On that time im so afraid for weird conversation.. But, everything is going well and there is no weird questions and weird conversation.. Smooth as my unpredicable.. Event there some celotehan from tante when we already arrive at the location. " brani gak de tinggal dsni sama si denis" and I left the converstion.. Hahahahaa....

After that the momemnt everything is going well and there is no other question.. And recently my dad open the conversation on dinner, he told about our neighbourhood that famliy is one of my mom's friend.. And she want acquaint her son to me.. Its realy weird and uncomfertable for me.. They realy want me to do this.. Im so unbelieveable.. They did it to me..

The other situation dy not yet come to sunday school.. And I and reni realy do hard for sunday school.. Teaching, story telling.. And greta help me to being guitarist.. Its realy amazing.. But, im so tired to do this.. I and reni just did every sunday in same feeling if one of us not come so pity she must do everything alone..

If dy can come back to sunday school.. I hope I had the spirit that I already lost.. Dy sti being my friend.. I hope he still know me so well as before marriage life..

Thnks god I have a beautiful life in my journey.. Sad, happy, weird, angry I still feels that fell im so happy to feels that..

On my officemate.. I still play with adi, Amir, fadia.. And many friends... I hope I can still have friends like them happy, cry, I told to them..

Thnks god for what already happen in my life..